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the last day of 2011

2011-12-31T23:37:00.005+08:00

hello to you my dear dead blog..
Oh My!! i last updated you in august?
it's the last day of 2011 already!
gosh. it felt as though it's just yesterday i updated about new year.

2011 has been a fruitful year.
i went on attachment (worked outside for the first time! real good experience for a spoilt brat like me!), got a GPA of 4 for my first semester in SP, went to korea again! (love!^^) then immediately after that, i went on my first overseas trip with my friends..

this korea trip was the most enjoyable one out of the 3 times i went.
cos for the first time, i can read the words, speak alittle and understand alittle.. hee^^
the tourguide 언니 and cameraman 오빠 are real nice people!
really do hope that we will stay in contact, so that i have "friends" in korea(:

(it feels good to blog again after so long! teehee)

then the trip to bangkok with my girls was a good experience!
but one thing i know for sure is that i wont return to that hotel again..
it's... scary..

family wise, i think it's more or less stagnant.. nothing much to comment on.

*time check* okay 30min more to 2012..

will the world really end in 2012 ?
if it really does, then i wont get the chance to travel korea alone!
but mother earth is really sick):
more and more natural disasters occuring all over the world..
everything will come to an end sooner or later..
alas! that aside... what's with me!~ hahah

okay. usual thing, resolution check!
~~- save my first 10k by the end of 2011~~
~~- not to be so slack. study hard.~~ --> considered done? hee
~~- control my temper. ignore whatever they say. keep cool.~~ controlled quite well i think :P
- remove the excess clothings from my wardrobe and donate! --> ohoh):
~~- know where my father's tablet is located at~~ --> havent visit him though >.<
~~- find out the route to raffle marina~~ --> proud! like finally ^^
~~- business venture. brainstorming~~. --> brainstormed. didnt spare the time to carry it out =X

okay~ pretty well done for 2011^^
teehee :D

so what's for 2012?
let's see..
- buck up on my korean language skills! must at least understand their speech!
- find a part-time job during holiday to save up more $ for trips!
- try to sleep before 12am as much as possible
- continue to control my temper(:
- treat myself better.
- (brought forward) remove the excess clothings from my wardrobe and donate/sell!

dear 2011, i thank you for every good and bad that i received which mould me into who im today.
im growing to see things in a better view with every passing day. im grateful that none of my loved ones left me. it's been a great eventful year.. i may rant alot about all the downs.. but i believe i will learn to manage that better in 2012.. i have to be contented with all the wellness and let them cover the downs(:

good bye to you, 2011
*fireworks time soon* (:

2011-08-07T15:21:00.000+08:00

it's the 7th night of july..
when my world came crashing down.
it's an expected outcome when i knew about this family meeting.
and true enough, it's all within expectation..

fight. blood. shoutings. screamings.
what's the outcome?
injuries. hurtings. even more misunderstandings..

im not allowed to post anything on facebook regarding this..
but i need to let it out..
i need to let it all out..
though i was told that all these have got nothing to do with me..
i wasnt the cause of the fight.
but im just very much affected by everything that has happened these days..
yes. very very affected.

it's been a roller coaster ride..
going up and down the rail; a never ending one..

words are like spears..
no matter how much i tell myself that the words are blurted out of anger,
im still very affected by them..

yes; i know we are the cause of all these family problems..
my mother is always at fault.
everything is my mother's fault.
you brothers and sisters are the saints.
so holy that you guys will only think of my mother when you are in shit.
when you need help.
how holy huh.

i never liked how you uncles and aunties treat my mother.
i never liked how my mother would go all out to help you all,
even knowing that you guys wont remember how she rendered you the assistance you need.
how ungrateful all of you are ?
you know it. i dont have to elaborate.

this is my family.
the family i grew up in.
where siblings of the generation before mine are like enemies..
they cant wait to see my mother fall.
they are all so superficial.

to think that after staying under one roof for more than a decade,
im called an outsider.
yes. OUTSIDER.
laugh my dear friends, laugh.
im an outsider. im no family of theirs.
im an outsider.

then i have another, saying that we are the root cause of all these family issues.
laugh again;
everything that happened is because of us.
yes. it's all our fault.
my mother wanted to move out, you forbid.
you stopped her everytime.
and now you tell me, we are the root cause of all these problems.
you want mum to get another house..
you want us to move out.
can someone tell me what is this ?

i didnt let my mum know what you told me.
i dont know how hurt my mother will be if i were to tell her..
i believe she'll feel infinity times more painful than i do.
cos these words came out from someone she least expected.
but how long can i keep this ?
there were so many occasions that nearly tricked me into spilling the beans
when will i let them out accidentally?
sigh

tell me how drama is this..
it's longer than those taiwanese dramas you've ever watched.
what more can i say..

who's the ultimate victims?
my mum and grandma.
imagine a mother seeing her 6children FIGHTING and quarreling..
till the extent she herself got injured too..
then imagine you paying the house instalment, utilities and stuff
but end up being a TENANT of the house.
what shit is this?

the more i look, the more sad i get..

i got a counselling session in the middle of the night.
comforting indeed.
but it's always easier said than done..
how can i not be sad..
it's impossible.
moreover it's me..
jeslyn toh. the stupid emo queen.

sigh. this is life..
every family has its own stories..
this is mine. the ever dramatic one...

a month into 21

2011-06-16T01:00:00.000+08:00

a month into 21.
nothing has changed.
jeslyn is still the same old jeslyn(:

family matters still as rubbish as it can be

studies still as slow as it was

my friends are still as nice *loves* :D

only the age is changing..

speaking of my birthday,
i received quite a number of letters
and im really thankful for having friends who care!
i wanna post the photos of the letters and presents
but some of my friends asked me to wait for theirs to arrive
so im still waiting..
haha.

some of the letters are really beautifully decorated/drawn!
can see that alot of effort has been put in!
but that's not the main thing~
the fact that my friends took the time and effort to write the letters really touched me(':

from the letters, i found out alot of fun facts that i never knew..
like i didnt know i was my junior's nightmare..
like i didnt know i have a weird voice that allows people to remember me (LOL?)
alot of words that sent me laughing like siao at one moment,
and watery eyes at the next(':
im really thankful..

i believe these are all true friends that played important roles in my short 21years
if im given a task to collect 3 drops of 100% pure tears from people who truly love me for who i am,
i believe i would be able to collect it pretty quickly.. right? hee
(do watch the korean drama, 49days. then you'll understand what im saying :D)

with that, im signing off~
thanks for being with me, my dearest friends(:
*loves*

counting down to 21st

2011-05-15T23:52:00.000+08:00

tonight, im sitting here in my room, counting down to my 21st.
thought it's incredible that my mummy has raised me for 21 years;
and that i've been living on planet Earth for so long.

what's 21st to you?
to many, it means increased responsibilities,
one will be responsible for his own life, taking ownership to his own actions
blah blah blah.

but to me, i think it's just gonna be the same..
haha.
it's just yet another birthday,
a day when well wishes come flooding my inbox
a day i feel good for having so many friends who care for me,
who love me for who im, even when im so super nasty,
even when we didnt contact each other for donkey years :D
even when im an anti-social weirdo :D

im grateful for having people who care for me.
im grateful for everything and anything!

though i really rant alot, but i just like to rant for i-dont-know-what-reason;
sometimes out of anger.
sometimes out of eagerness.
sometimes out of desperateness.
sometimes out of sadness.
whatever it maybe, im still grateful for being well and healthy(:

so, this is the last entry before i bid goodbye to my teenlife,
and enter the so-called adulthood.
i hope everything's just gonna be smooth-sailing..
and that everyone around me will be healthy and happy.
i owe all of you out there my life.
thanks for being around and helped paint my life(:

with that,
im signing off as a kid, a kid who will always stay in me, till death do us apart :D
gonna be adult loh!
joining the aging population already.
haha.

take care all! *hearts*

SPren; KDD attached? ):

2011-04-18T20:10:00.001+08:00

Today's my first day in Singapore Polytechnic.
Officially a SPren and so, im my junior's junior
feel so young :D
Laughs.

Now that im back to mainstream school,
there are like a dozen more things to do as compared to BCAA.

Contacted my ex-classmate, she said that BCAA will only start on wednesday
and timetable isnt out yet..
inefficient as usual.

BUT SP isnt any better.. (JAW DROP!!!!)
I thought the timetable wasnt out for i didnt see my class appearing anywhere.
And when i went to the school to check, I realized that my "class" dont even exist.
The 5 pathetic souls of my "class" are like ghosts which go to different classes for different modules.
Like some modules we have to join Year1 and some Year2.
And what's adding to the woes is that SP is too big for my good.
I couldnt find my way to the class and was nearly late.
Gosh.

Anyway i got to go to school earlier tomorrow to clarify my timetable again
before i go LALALA for my monday's class (1.5hr only!).

That's all for now.
Got to go MPS already!~

아자 아자 파이팅!

im waiting for KDD. things arent the same anymore):

2011-04-13T12:58:00.000+08:00

School is starting on 18th April 2011.
And I am not a wee bit excited about it.
I will be back into my turtle shell,
into an unfamiliar, strange environment.
I am not glad about it.

I appealed out of Food Science,
and got into Civil Engineering with Business.
Yes, as usual, flow with the current.
I dont want to do anything that will upset my mum.
So I'll continue to live my life as a puppet till... I dont know when.

My life as a puppet isnt that bad.
I get what i want and i dont have to care about things
But my live is just.. ridiculous.
I bought a new lappy from SP, registered and prepared the documents,
blah blah blah.
and my mum asked:

"Why not you try registering for a private university?
My friends say dot.dot university is recognised and is good.
You dont have to go engineering maybe can choose medical line..."

So what is this now?
I got into food science which requires better grade as compared to civil engineering
and she got upset over it.
BECAUSE OF HER RESPONSE,
I pondered and wondered.
I still chose what she wants in the end.
And?
Didnt she realise that she has wasted alot of my time ?

sigh.

After SP, if i dont get into local university,
I will not continue studying anymore I guess.
I am sick of everything.

Can the world just end next year as predicted?
Thanks.

acceptance.

2011-03-17T15:44:00.000+08:00

It's a mixed emotion.

I got accepted by Singapore Polytechnic, Year 2, Diploma in Food Science and Technology.
My mother wasnt glad about it.
She was like "why did you get into food science ? sigh."
She's still like before, insisting that only the field she's in has the best grass.
What can I say ?

Her reactions were just too heavy for me to handle.
I totally lost the mood to do anything,
let alone the enrolment stuff..

Now, I am fighting a war with myself - should i just continue studying in BCA Academy, or just go against my mother's wish?

All I know is that I am not as determined as my sister.
It's ok to go against others' wishes, so long as she gets what she wants.
I couldnt make myself do it.

My sister was like, "hey! just ignore what she says! the future is yours, you have to prove to her."

That's our difference.

Sigh.
Somehow, I knew that this will come if im being enrolled into a course other than civil engineering.
But I thought there's a glimmer of hope since my mum kept saying that it's hard to stay in the construction line.

Well, words are just words.
I shouldnt have believed it anyway.
Gullible.

Still, up to this moment in time, 2months to 21,
I still dont see my future.
My future is still bleak.

Jeslyn Toh, just what are you doing with your life ?

突然好想你　突然鋒利的回憶　突然模糊的眼睛

2011-03-12T01:21:00.000+08:00

突然好想你　突然鋒利的回憶　突然模糊的眼睛

daddy's block and unit no.

2011-02-07T00:34:00.001+08:00

block 115
unit 125

that's all jeslyn toh has to locate her dad.
better than nothing, isnt it?
shall look for my daddy once exam's over..

it's been a long long wait..

sigh. 初一

2011-02-03T11:34:00.003+08:00

it's the first day of Chinese New Year.
so unlike it.

everyone must be busy visiting relatives.
all i need to do is to sit on the bed and do nothing.
cool or what?

the last thing i did on CNY eve,
was drinking.
the first thing i did on 初一,
was crying.

what a happening chinese new year for my 21st.

thanks for everything ah, jeslyn toh.
you've ruined the festive totally.

sigh.

only if i have a shoulders for my tears,
a hug and words of comfort.

but, jeslyn toh, you dont deserve it.
you've been reminded again and again to keep your mouth shut.
you chose not to control your temper, your mouth.
this is what happens.

rahh.
what an awful morning..

what a CNY eve..

2011-02-02T21:54:00.004+08:00

oh oh.
my "later" is so super late right..
from New Year Eve drag till Chinese New Year Eve..
too busy.. cant help it..

2011 started fresh.
i got to experience pasar malam life for 3+ weeks.
though it's tiring, but it's really a good experience

i learnt alot from it.
got to see people of different types
and learnt how to handle them.
and most important of all,
it kept me occupied that i didnt have the time to think much,
especially on my dad's death anniversary.
we lehlong-ed on that day.
and soooo many cheapos turned up to snatch the goods.
scary.

but all in all, THANKS FOR SUPPORTING!
i've got supportive friends and relatives..
i like!(:

hmm..
are you guys having reunion dinner now?
i have none this CNY eve..
not even those sit together for awhile kind of dinner..
we had leftover food from afternoon..
what a superb CNY Eve right?

it's all because of me.
it all started cos of a very simple question.
i caused everyone to have no reunion dinner this year..
and cos of that, my sis cried.

JESLYN TOH! YOU'RE FANTASTIC.
small but mighty.
to think you are capable of creating such a din out of a simple question.
i salute you.
zZZ.

sometimes i wished that im born mute.
i talked too much.
i bothered too much.
this family is so chaotic thanks to you, Jeslyn Toh.
rahh..

that apart.
if you see the photo that i've just uploaded on facebook,
you see a shit that i received yet again.
saw it?
some cocked up neighbours i have.
this is the second time i got it.

why are they so kaypoh?
dont they have better things to do?
even if i get summoned, it's not them paying what.
busybodies.
zZZ

i dont have any festive mood this CNY..
is it because im getting old or what?
sigh.
血浓于水, 家合万事兴
my family is just so cocked up.
cant even stay together properly.
my mummy and i are forever the baddies.
what's with this?
so sick.

what we want is very very simple.. (to me at least)
we just want to sit down happily and have a simple meal
but look at what's happening?
phews. i really dont know how to say already.
totally sian.

okay. back to the main point.
im suppose to list my new year resolutions..

- save my first 10k by the end of 2011
- not to be so slack. study hard.
- control my temper. ignore whatever they say. keep cool.
- remove the excess clothings from my wardrobe and donate!
- know where my father's tablet is located at
- find out the route to raffle marina
- business venture. brainstorming.

gosh. seven only?
rahh.. im not thinking..
but well. let it be.
let's see how many can i strike off out of the five.

enjoy the long weekend people!~
*loves

last day of 2010

2010-12-31T00:38:00.006+08:00

In a twinkling of the eyes,
we've all come to the last day of 2010..
it was as if i just bidded 2009 good bye yesterday..
time flies..

what exactly have i achieved this year ?
what exactly have i done this year ?
who have helped to paint my life this year ?

the list goes on..

i have so many questions up there...
but to most questions, i dont have an answer..

let's check on my resolutions for 2010...

- learn something new! (like drawing/singing/piano etc) $$$
~~- remove A-Level stuff from my room? table included. HAHA! D:~~
- donate some clothings & toys. ((:
- do some voluntary work ? excluding what i've been doing on MONDAYS (;
~~- go get a hi-fi set and set up the tv set in my room! =DD~~
~~- TRY to attend more outings. $$$~~
~~- GO OVERSEAS!! (NOT TO SENTOSA OR WHATEVER ISLAND K!) $$$~~
~~- meet up with the NEHS!! very long nah catch up already! losing touch )):~~
~~- get a new handphone $$$~~

not bad yarh?
more than half fulfilled. hah.

so what's for 2011? let me think about it..
will be back later for the update..
even if there's no one reading my blog,
im still gonna do a reflection and also a new year resolution!
it feels good to strike things off the list(x

that's all for now(:

倪倪死了.. neyney's gone..2/12/2010

2010-12-04T00:24:00.004+08:00

after living for exactly 11months more,
my winter white, honey aka neyney,
passed away peacefully on Dec 2, 2010..
joining starstar and koko in the hammies paradise..

i didnt get to say any last words to neyney..
for it was still breathing before i went to bed..
life..
so vulnerable..
so unpredictable..

i didnt want to face the reality..
i thought it was just my eyes playing tricks on me..
i looked away...
but something inside me forced me to look at it again....

neyney was lying motionless in his cage..
yes.. he wasnt breathing..
his stiff limbs and body confirmed his death..

touching his motionless, cold, stiff body was a torture..
it was as if the world collapsed;
as if there were thousands of daggers stabbed into my heart..
i felt so heavy..
tears flowed like river..
no words could describe the pain at that moment..

to many, neyney is just an animal, a pet or worse still, just a rodent
but to me, he is my companion who accompained me through ups and downs for almost 3 years..
he's always by my side every night,
listening to my rantings before i go to bed..
he's more than a pet.. he's better than a boyfriend..
for he brought only joy.. for he was always around, ready to listen....

for a maximum life span of 3 years,
neyney has been benovelent to me..
2years 8months is already a miracle from him to me..

he helped heal my wound, of losing koko and starstar overnight..
he lived 11months more after they passed on..
he accompanied me for near 3 years..
and during his last 2 months or so, he's slowly showing me that he has aged..
giving me time to learn the fact that he has go soon...

now that he's gone,
neyney, thanks for everything that you've given to me..
you'll be in my heart till the day i stop breathing..
如果还有来世，就别再做仓鼠了..
赶紧投胎去~ 有缘再见..
정말 너무 사랑해..

what's death to you?

2010-10-04T00:44:00.003+08:00

what is death to you?

it's entering an eternal state of peace, tranquility and serenity; where you gain your freedom from everything that has been holding you back.

-jeslyn

quarrel again...

2010-10-01T22:13:00.003+08:00

HAPPY children's day!

HAPPY ? what an irony.
tomorrow will mark the 14th day since i last talked to my mum.
and the situation turned for the worse instead of improving..
when ? TODAY.

while 90% of the children in the malls, on the street are with their mother/parents,
i was loitering around before i finally look for da jiu mu and my cousins,
to join in their celebration for children's day..

rahh. i dont know what to say.
it's all because of that sidney ng! that dumbass bootlicker.
yes, i dont have the certificates that he has.
and with no one having those certs in the office,
there's nothing i can do to shoo him off..
moreover, as i mentioned earlier,

BOOTLICKERS THRIVE IN ALL TRADES

according to my sis, mum cried today.
out of guilt or what, i dont know.
i didnt want to make her cry.
but she doesnt know how much tears i've shed because of her.
i cant say that i suffered because of her.
cos that'll be unfair to her..

she sent a sms ;
"u dont like me nvm. u take care. i think i should be the one to disappear in order to please everyone"

i replied;
"u r my mum n my only parent. daddy dumped us 3. im alrdy doing whatever i can to please everyone. but my feelings and thoughts are never thought of.. the only way is to isolate myself since i've always been a thorn due to my attitude"

yes. doing whatever i could to please my mum especially.
always brainwashing myself to suit her.
but i admit im a spoilt brat.
she'll give me whatever i want.
so in return(i suppose), i try to accomodate to her.
and that's the choice i made.
who can i blame?

all in all that has happened till this moment,
jeslyn toh, you are fully responsible.

不喜欢我的人多到数不清~　脾气坏到爆，又不会拍马屁；牙尖嘴利，可说是人见人厌... 但这就是我！再怎么不讨好，只要我没做错、说错，我还是会做我自己~

no matter how sucky a person im, jeslyn toh is always jeslyn toh. leopard never change its spots.

what's with the hatred ?

2010-09-20T00:55:00.002+08:00

i dont know what's with me..

im SURE that im NOT the one at fault.

it's all mum's senseless comments that agitated me.

she claimed that i didnt listen properly before making comments.
but the fact is she just wanted to rant; she didnt want any comment.
and being my mum for 20 years,
she should've known that jeslyn toh WILL MAKE COMMENTS FOR SURE
especially if it concerns someone i hated all along..

bootlickers thrive in all trades, im serious. and MARK MY WORDS.

alas, the fortune teller has already warned my mum that im a source of trouble.
i'll be a burden to her.

i dont know what has that got to mean
and what did i actually do that made me a source of trouble..

after doing whatever i can to help her..
even altering my academic path..
i feel that all my effort has gone down the drain..

having to escaped that 2years is making me waste 4 years..
if i were more determined,
and be ignorant of her feelings then,
i'd have chosen another path..

so tell me,
what's the result of being sensitive to other people's feelings?
see for yourself..

if you cant, im stating it now..
you'll only hurt yourself..

so,
JESLYN TOH, in the end, you're just a BURDEN.
serve you right for being "WAH-SO-GUAI" in your OWN context
nobody cares please.

byebye exams!!

2010-09-12T23:29:00.002+08:00

today marked the last day of examination..
hiphip.. HOOORRRAYYYY!!! (:

went to Singapore Korean School for my TOPIK
(Test On Proficiency In Korean)
just hope to pass it
*keep fingers crossed*

after that was sleeping, shopping and tving..

did you watch THE FAST AND FURIOUS: TOKYO DRIFT?!

Oh MY GOD!
it's soooooo cooool please!!
love the cars in there.. and of cos the skilled drivers..
drift drift drift~
wo0ts
love them to pluto..

when's my turn ? hmm
how i wish i can be on set..
just on set will do...

will dream becomes reality?
let's just continue dreaming for now...

one paper down~

2010-08-28T16:40:00.002+08:00

today marked the first day of the semester 1 examination.

one paper down..

four more to go..

GO ALL THE WAY!! (:

poetic please!!

2010-08-01T23:39:00.003+08:00

在这冷冷的夜里看着节目，
无意间想起当初那一幕；　
我把包包弄坏的那一幕～

从那刻起，　
你的生命中多了一块傻木。。

因识得太迟，
你守着单数，　
也就此让命运超速。。

过了不久，
机会来住；
但傻木没好好地顾，
又一次把它摆出；
让别人停步。。　

时间迅速,
心已被人捉住;
傻木高攀是错误；
封起情储,
逃伤处。。

虽然未来是个未知数，
还是选择不握住。。
感激你一路所做的全部~

oh gosh! im so poetic please
HAHAHAHHA (:

I love the temperature!~

nice cooling weather~

2010-07-30T23:15:00.002+08:00

It rained cats and dogs today~
driving to school with that heavy downpour
was indeed one of the most horrible things to do to start the day~
jammed. stucked.
took like 15mins to travel from Jurong Town Hall to Clementi Ave 6 Exit~
how bad can that be~ ..

thus, i was still slightly late for school,
how matter how fast i rushed after the jam eased
but, there're only like 2souls in the class
and none of the 2 belongs to the teacher~
in another words, the teacher was late~
LOUSY~

nice cooling day to be in~
i like the temperature now!~
how i wish im a boy~
only then i would be able to go downstairs for a slow jog~
this kind of temperature hardly comes by k!~
wasted ):

July is coming to an end.
im like BROKE~
very broke indeed~
paid for my korean language proficiency test,
korean language lesson, birthday presentSSSSS
and also on movies!

gosh.
caught like 6-7movies within the month~
that's CRAZY!

but one GREAT thing was that i watched one movie ALONE!
yes. i went for a movie ALONE(:
watched Inception with me and myself~
quite a good experience~
i like it(:

im preparing me for myself~
for the days when i'll be alone(:
i've got to be independent, in all aspect.
so that i dont have to rely on people~
working hard towards that goal~
go jeslyn!(:

school's pretty ok still~
just that i HATE the admin staff to pluto~
other than that, it's fun to have nice classmates
who can entertain/stand the kuku me(:

till im back, take care all
*loves

tired~~

2010-07-15T23:27:00.002+08:00

WHAO! im falling sick~~
throat's gonna break down and die~
nose's gonna sit down and cry~

HAHAHA!
JESLYN TOH!
you're totally random please~

i have so many things to update on!!~~
but i dont seem to have the time to~
RAHH!
so many things undone..
and tick-tock-tick-tock~
every seconds just left without notifying me!~
lousy time!

so im so tight, tight & tired!~

okay~ key take away for this entry;

BCA ACADEMY'S ADMIN IS SO LOUSY!!!

and they DONT ALLOW GC!
like WTH?!

DAMN.

korea out of FIFA~ ):

2010-07-03T01:01:00.004+08:00

backie backie~
just came back from the mps sharing session..
alittle tipsy after 4 glasses of wine~
like D:
shouldnt be tipsy~
im getting lousy):
but still managed to drive myself home~ (:

okay~ an old news to update on..
South Korea is out of FIFA 2010..
i dont like Luis Suarez~
humph!

if only the goal post is alittle taller~
South Korea would have thrashed URUGUAY~
boohoosSs~

South Korean players werent at their best that day~
so.. too bad~
no more dae han ming kuk~ ):
no more ki sung yueng~ ):

anyways, the two weird ulu GUAY GUAY
kicked asia out of FIFA 2010.
Uruguay eliminated South Korea
Paraguay eliminated Japan at a tiring 2hour game + penalties..
tough "war"~

disappointed KI SUNG YUENG, Crying Cha Du RI)':

korea into top 16!!

2010-06-23T23:47:00.004+08:00

YAYNESS TO PLUTO!!
SOUTH KOREA GOT INTO TOP 16 of FIFA 2010!!
YAY YAY YAY!!!

caught the match at 2.30am
exciting match..
my heart stayed in my mouth throughout the match..

Korea's pretty lucky i should say..
the Nigerians committed lots of mistakes~
and they are really rough..
poor Korean guys):

i got a new candy named "KI SUNG YUENG"
no. 16 in Korea Republic's squad list =D
he's cute please!

his photo's gonna be my wallpaper till i find the next candy
LOL

cute.cute.cute(x

WHOOOOOO

2010-06-19T01:01:00.002+08:00

IT'S HOLIDAY!!!!
LIKE YAY YAY YAY YAY!!!!
TOTAL YAYNESS PLEASE!!!
YOUHUUUUUUUUU~~~~~~~~
xDDDDD

yes! im back from Taiwan since 2 weeks ago =X
time passes so quickly right ?
rahh!

i didnt update as soon as i return cos i was pretty busy
busy with so many things
tests, project, undone work, etc etc etc~
and i have only saturday and sunday before school on monday(7th June)
so i had to prepare the souvenirs and food that i bought for my friends, relatives, etc
like BUSY unpacking and packing!
life without my maid):

was like worried for my accounting test..
but ended up it was an open book test..
chey~ hahahah
scored well leh! xDDDD

okay~ about Taiwan Trip..
it was a FUN-FILLED trip!
but perhaps due to the fact that there was no language barrier,
i didnt feel like im abroad =x

the night markets are just like the one we have in Bugis
so shopping wise, it's like in SG just that most items are cheaper there
didnt eat alot of street foodies cos we rather spend the $$ on apparels + gifts
overspend like everyday..
scary right?!
we were like trying to buy everything and anything..
LOL

i like the rural areas more than the urban ones
cos urban areas are like malacca;
malacca like more than a decade ago(that was when i last went)
heh.

natural sceneries are NICE!
waterfall, mountains, lakes, sea~
i like! (x

i've like soooooooooooo many things to talk about...
stay tune for more entries
cos JESLYN TOH's one-week long)): TERM BREAK just started!

random shots from Taiwan on facebook..
uploading in progress(:

off to taiwan soon~~

2010-05-29T00:47:00.002+08:00

OMG ~~ my tagboard has been . . . . . .

what the pong please..
can anyone tell me what can i do to stop it ?
RAHH!

okay.. in hours time i will be on plane flying towards TAIWAN~
like YAY!!
but but but...
i will be missing ONE WHOLE week of lessons..
and tests are awaiting upon returning from the trip..
wo0ts.
my england getting bad i think..
HAHAHA

kaykay...
take care people...
im sleepy already..
i will be back for more!
meanwhile, just miss me xD

*loves

im in school~ BCA DCE Y1 Class 1B

2010-04-28T11:07:00.003+08:00

Hello people!

Today's the 1st official day of school @ BCA Academy for year ONE..

the timetable committee is lousy i should say..

i have THREE blah blah blah hours of break before the next lesson..

it was the same as yesterday!

just for a stupid dummy photo, DCE students got to report at 10am

and the bad thing was that the photographers + coordinators were LATE!!

what's worse was that within that 10 seconds,

we had 3+hours of FREE time..

they were like "come back at 1.30pm"~

like Oh my tian~

Singaporean Students are like precious gems to me here at BCA

i felt like im studying in China you see..

horrible.. they are just everywhere ):

thank god my class has more burmese..

at least i can mix better with them (:

done with ranting..

off to slack~

tadas peeps!

take care loads!

help me to pass the survey around!

*loves

survey - stay real

2010-04-23T12:57:00.004+08:00

HELLO PEOPLE!!

Please HELP!

HERE! to take survey

Im nice; i know :D

Thank YOU lovelies~~

attending NEW MEDIA COURSE

2010-04-17T16:21:00.003+08:00

hey people!

im in the midst of a New Media Course at NTUC Trade Union Hub..

it's boring~ ):

but thank god we can do our own random stuff xD

facebook-ed.

rotted.

then,

finally something new -> Twitter

okay.. i admit im old-ded cos Twitter isnt new at all

but i have no interest in it lah~

hahaha.

but it's at least something that i didnt use before
so managed to catch my attention..

good good(:

saw cruz teng's tweet..

it's RAINING HEAVILY at kallang!

worried.

cos im going with joey to MAYDAY DNA CONCERT later..

got free tickets from Terence's wife(:

but but but it's OUTDOOR!

so the seats will be wet right ?

worried worried ):

rahh.

lesson is ending soon..

like finally.

till i update again~ :D

april's fool day

2010-04-01T21:10:00.002+08:00

HAPPY APRIL FOOL DAY!!

How fast.. It's already APRIL!!!!
i thought it was just yesterday that we had New Year Celebration -.-

gosh gosh gosh~
everyday is zooming past at lightning speed...
phews...

back again soon~
going out of Singapore.

oh ya! most important thing!
please do not talk to me in FACEBOOK!
cos my mum uses my account to play fishworld etc etc

hahhaa~

articles

2010-03-25T08:58:00.003+08:00

IHT apology over article - ehh... i want GP lesson!~

Body found in Sentosa Cove - hmm.. NAKED in POOL ? owner of pose house uncontactable~ meaning ? he pushed her into the pool after sex ? @.@

go have a look at these articles~

happy lunar valentine's day!

2010-02-28T21:23:00.002+08:00

HEY!
It's the last day of CNY already!!!

GOSH.

SUPER fast.

SO,

HAPPY LUNAR VALENTINES' DAY, people!
[[元宵节快乐!!]]

This CNY is abit.... *speechless*
went office like EVERYDAY.
did SAME thing everyday.
was kinda bored.
cos i dont know how to play mahjong & poker cards.

BUT.

my workers were quite entertaining.
the only fun i had was when i disturb them =x

the highlight for this CNY:
I FOUND MY CHILDHOOD FRIEND!!!
all thanks to FaceBook.WOOTS.
met him on 初二.
he accompanied me back to office
cos it's been 11 years since he last saw my family members
he misses them. LOL!
he used to stay with us and we shared bed when we were kids.
*overflowing memories*
hahaha.

i miss my childhood...
those carefree days...

thanks for being one of the fabulous painters, qian(:

oh ya!!
i have a worker who look like JAY CHOU!!
or rather, he's cuter than jay chou!~
*sumpa*

but he doesnt want to renew his work permit already):
he doesnt like the camera too.
my sis tried to take a snap but the ran away.
i think Joey frightened him off..
that's why he doesnt want to renew.
HAHAHAHA!!!

busy.busy.busy.TOMORROW.

so tadas!
take care all!!

CNY EVE~`

2010-02-13T23:13:00.003+08:00

It's Chinese New Yeat EVE!!
and in around 45mins time,
it'll be 初一!!

but it doesnt feel very right..
dont really have the festive mood..
let's see how it'll be like tomorrow..

PEOPLE, remember to 守岁 ok!
(i think no one will read this at this time or any time soon)
LOL!
do leave your "footprint" if you are here k!

enjoy yourself tonight people(:

2010-02-02T22:35:00.003+08:00

Read.Decipher.Follow

quote

2010-01-29T09:55:00.002+08:00

生活不会辜负我们 ...

只要我们不对它灰心 ...

im trying to be positive..
just so that i wont be that 自卑..
gambatte!

zhu!

2010-01-27T23:08:00.003+08:00

男生喜欢美女天经地义

女生喜欢帅哥无可厚非

你不明白？

算了。

12 years`

2010-01-25T19:06:00.003+08:00

it's the 12th year...

it's been 12 yearSs...

12 yearSs have passed...

TWELVE YEARS.

Not a single dream.

yes. 12 long years.

i achieved almost none of daddy's last words...

Me ? didnt study hard enough to get into University. - i failed

Sis ? Best Actress Award. i dont even regconise her sometimes.. - i failed

Bro ? He loves playing more than studying.
but he's already considered obedient already - border line pass.

how lousy am i ? very.

Daddy, dont worry. we are all doing fine..
sorry for not getting into the university.
sorry for making mummy upset when she knows i didnt make it.
sorry for not being able to instill basic manners in her.
sorry that she broke mummy's heart again and again, and that there's nothing i can do
i'll be the bitch, bull, or whatever, and try really hard to fulfil my promise to you.

daddy, i miss you. alot)'x

stupid gal~~~!!!

2010-01-12T23:40:00.002+08:00

JESLYN TOH JIE YING DID SOMETHING DARN STUPID!!!!
RAHH!~

know what ?
she visited a UK website and ordered a pair of lenses..
she proceeded with the order WITHOUT realizing that it's degreeLESS
BWAHH RAHHH!!!!

LEHLONG LEHLONG AH~~~
WHO WANTS TO BUY ~~~
stupid girl.. your brains are disintegrating. GOSH)x
p/s: beware of radiation. shoo all shoo.

good bye my love, starstar...

2010-01-02T23:44:00.003+08:00

on the very second day of 2010
[[ 2/1/2010 ]]
Star Star passed on...
this time round, not from injuries..
her death is caused by fit...
her final squeaks...
hurts me deeply....

why is all these happening...
i just lost koko yesterday and now, starstar is gone..
i dont want any deaths anymore...
please spare me from the cruelty of fate...

im crushed...
i hate this......
shorten my lifespan instead.....

koko is dead)'x

2010-01-01T23:44:00.007+08:00

a decade into the millennium...

what have you done ?

what have happened ?

how many disasters strucked ?

how much virus have mutated ?

how many lives are lost ?

how long more can you live ?

think about all these questions..

you'll feel minute and lost..

on this very first day of 2010,

[[ 01-01-10 ]] ;

[[ 2103 hr ]];

koko is pronounced dead..

im with her till her very last breath..

her final breath; her final movements; her tears

will stay with me.. now and forever...

what's with me now is a cold, hard, motionless body..

my tear bank is suffering from a drought..

koko..

though you are joey&gerald's ham ham;

i loved you as much as i love honey&star...

i'll remember all weird actions & noises that made you a weird little hammy..

walk well and lose your way home..

dont ever be a hamster again..

the life span is way too short..

you are not even due and you are gone..

fate is playing trick on you..

but hurry get reincarnated.. we'll meet again~

you are weird cos you are SPECIAL..

we love you~..

rest well ..

i'll keep your cage..

pay me a visit before you reincarnate..

koko's final images..

you'll be in my heart.. always...

koko ):

2009-12-31T20:35:00.005+08:00

as mentioned, im back~
time check, 2035hr..
roughly 3.5 hours to 2010..
how are you feeling right now ?
nervous ?
excited?

Jeslyn:
future seems alittle bleak for me..
it's still an uncertainty..
as to whether i will get a place to study..
whatever the case, 2009 is ending..
throw it away and start afresh..
i dont want 2010 to be like 2009..
i dont want to work my brains out just to realise that i missed out alot;
just to realise that there's nothing much that i can remember..

so how were my last days spent ?
dropped by 4C class chalet at the usual bungalow
it was JONATHAN PHUA'S BIRTHDAY [30/12]
celebrated. bitched. tv-ed. chipped. drived. home.
sent the girls home.
do you know?
it took us around 10 min to travel from pasir ris to jurong!
i was SHOCKED too!!
but the road was pretty empty..
and guess what? I SAW NISSAN GTR! *drool*

bathed. slept at around 2. woke up at 6.
officed. and sent koko to the animal clinic at 0830.
(koko is my bro&sis' ham ham..)

for some god-knows-what-reasons,
my cousin injured it.
suspect it fell from height or got tortured by that evil girl.
koko is super weak now.. her spine is injured. she's breathing very hard.
vet Liang said that koko may not survive through)'x
koko is just a little baby.. i dont want her to leave)'x
her time isnt up yet!!
she'll recover.. i hope.. *crossed fingers*

rahh! a full day work on a New Year Eve sucks.
stayed till 7 before leaving office.
and im home now, waiting for the countdown on ch 5~
AND!! the fireworks that can be seen from my house!! YAY! ^^,

okay.. *fast forward*

2010; she's TWENTY. no more TEEN ):
- learn something new! (like drawing/singing/piano etc) $$$
- remove A-Level stuff from my room? table included. HAHA! D:
- donate some clothings & toys. ((:
- do some voluntary work ? excluding what i've been doing on MONDAYS (;
- go get a hi-fi set and set up the tv set in my room! =DD
- TRY to attend more outings. $$$
- GO OVERSEAS!! (NOT TO SENTOSA OR WHATEVER ISLAND K!) $$$
- meet up with the NEHS!! very long nah catch up already! losing touch )):
- get a new handphone $$$

okay. for those who are curious,
im SINGLE but UNavailable xDD
for i doubt mrRIGHT will appear in 2010..
[but if he really appears in 2010, i dont mind removing "UN"]
HAHAHAHA!!
but people, the KEY is, dont have to be a matchmaker(;

same old standard if you want to know;
- taller than me by at least 15cm~ (im very short already leh!!)
- must know how to play guitar or piano ((x
- know how to sing (:
i think guys who can play instrument are super cool.
and guys who can sing are sweet.
that may be a fallacy. hahaha
but i'll be my own judge. haha!

*puke*someone lehlong-ing herself*

lalala~
let's have a GAME OF LIFE.
see ya NEXT YEAR peeps ^^

last day...

2009-12-31T07:45:00.002+08:00

it's the VERY LAST DAY of 20-09..
and it's 0745hr..
im early.. i know..

i doubt anyone will be reading this..
but who cares..
it's MY blog right?
haha.

so what do you plan to do on this very last day of 2009?
pack your room ?
do up your new year resolution ?
or are you trapped in a office like me ?
is it a half day for you ?
it's a FULL DAY for me..
how sad):

it's the last day..
i dont wish to be sad..
kick that sadness away!~
it'll be a GREAT DAY..

ENJOY IT PEOPLE~
CYA TONIGHT(:

AVATAR~!! WHAOS!

2009-12-29T23:45:00.007+08:00

Caught Avatar with my cousins, bro and aunt just now..
WHAO i should say...
YOU SHOULD CATCH THIS MOVIE!!
it's really a MUST WATCH before 2009 ends...
you'll remember it like how Titanic stays in your mind
(Titanic was produced in 1997! TWELVE years ago!!)
a decade of hard work that you CANNOT MISS..

initially i was like "eww.. scary painted faces.."
i NEVER wanted to watch it..
until Sunday when my bro agreed to go with my aunt and cousins
being nice, i decided to accompany him despite of my phobia (:

we watched the 3D version (aunt's treat.. hee!)..

it's really a hassle to wear that heavy big 3D glasses..

but i like the effects..

the scenes became so real, as though everything is happening right infront of you..

but again, THE GLASSES ARE REALLY HEAVY! for me at least):

Avatar plot: A wounded ex-marine (Sam Worthington) is sent to settle the planet Pandora against his will. He gets caught by the planet’s natives, called Na’vis, and falls in love with one of them (Zoe Saldana). On their planet, he undergoes an experiment to transform into an avatar, another physical version of himself, which is a giant otherworldly creature who he can control through his mind.
More than ten years in the making, Avatar marks Cameron’s return to feature directing since helming 1997’s Titanic, the highest grossing film of all time and winner of eleven Oscars, including Best Picture.

okay peeps, remember to go pee pee before you enter the cinema!

you wont want to miss any single part of the movie..

trust me(:

NEW YEAR IS COMING~

isnt it z0oMinG?

2009-12-25T00:38:00.002+08:00

성탄을 축하합니다!!!

1 YEAR !!! <3

2009-12-23T23:58:00.006+08:00

THANKS FOR BEING SAFE BY MY SIDE FOR THE PAST 1 YEAR
LOVE YOU!!~(x

ahh..
dont misunderstand~
im just talking about my licence being safe by my side..
cos... i didnt go law by law..

okay..
my licence is ONE year old already!
like Zo0m z0oM!
a year has passed...
how fast...
i've stopped studying for more than one year already!!
gosh..

evidence evidence.. seesee!! *GRINS*

tadas all..
CHRISTMAS IS HERE(x

Tiger Hunting - Tiger Woods wife outrun video game

2009-12-11T23:17:00.001+08:00

Tiger Hunting - Tiger Woods wife outrun video game

hahah! go play~~ xD

2012 ? ...

2009-12-09T22:39:00.004+08:00

im listening to 孙自佑's recordings now..
can imagine him singing..
where are you!!
*花痴*
HAHA

just watched 2012 with my bro & sis..
feeling a little down..
will the world really end ?
it will sooner or later right ?

my heart really shattered looking at how the crust broke into pieces,
how helpless the people are..
phews..
bad movie choice..
but the thing is,

SINGAPOREANS ARE REALLY LUCKY TO BE BORN HERE!

we have no disasters unlike many other countires..
thank the land, thank the faults..

okay okay.. that aside..
change the atmosphere a little..
hmm..

i watched The Twilight Saga: New Moon last thursday..
i thought it was nice till the very last part..

"will you marry me?"
& THE END!!!

what what what is that?!?!?!?
well well..
movies~ =/

whatever the content,
i like the cast!
Kristen Stewart (Bella Swan)
Taylor Lautner (Jacob Black) --> he looks cool with short hair!
Ashley Greene (Alice Cullen) --> i think she looks better with short hair(:
&&&
Dakota Fanning (Jane)!! her alluring red eyes ~~

ehh.. Robert Pattinson (Edward Cullen) is a little too WHITE to be on the list :P

BLAHS!

Pretty Girls & Handsome Guys
what more can you ask for ??? xD
*THUMBS UP*

im not an undergraduate!! )x

2009-12-05T18:08:00.004+08:00

i dont know what's wrong with Blogger...
i still cant upload photos =/

oh well, in case some of you still dont know..

JESLYN TOH JIE YING DIDNT
MANAGE TO GET INTO ANY LOCAL UNIVERSITIES

im not an undergraduate.. just a lousy A-Level Cert holder.
okay ? okay ?
im surprised too..
but so?
fact is fact.
so say whatever you want.
i dont give a damn to anything.
im just a living robot now~

tads

blogger dumbo

2009-12-03T23:45:00.005+08:00

there's something wrong with blogger..
i couldnt upload the photos since last night!
RAHH!!
irritating)x

i kept my promise to return and post photos..
but blogger #@$%$#%

till you see photos..
tads~ ):

before i shut off,
The Twilight Saga: New Moon;
i think jacob(is it ?) the werewolf is more handsome than edwin..
edwin's too WHITE!!
HUGE wolf.. macho macho.. i like xD
and anyway, the ending sucks =/

random photos

2009-12-02T23:34:00.004+08:00

hey hey~ im back..
i mentioned that i'll be back to post some random photos..
but look at the time!!
*time check*
almost 12am~
im sleepy.. *yawns*

so let me post some photos on non-living things today..
living things will come another day k ?
haha.

briefing~*
it's a no worries trip with ah mah around..
cos she'll bring like the ENTIRE HOUSE there..
trust me.. you'll be surprised by what my ah mah brought..
look on.. have a good laugh(=

happy birthday fiona!

2009-12-01T22:30:00.003+08:00

first thing first...

HAPPY BIRTHDAY MY DEAR COUSIN, FIONA!(:

okay im back from a getaway..
it's really GREAT to throw work away for that 2 days
(though it's suppose to be 4 days 3 nights)

so why did i say it's only 2 days ?

1) on thursday, i reached Sentosa only around 9pm?
and im dead tired after a day's work.. so, zZz

2) on friday(Hari Raya), thanks to the rain,
we stayed indoor(at vivo) till like 4+,
before we can go to the beach(after returning to the resort)
AND!! it started drizzling AGAIN after awhile..
no sun):
tired flying kite but failed, played volleyball and injured myself during that short time span..
fantastic.. so back we went):
tv-ed. maggi-ed. showered. tv-ed. ponyo-ed. and zZz (so early? read on).

3) i came all the way back to the WEST from Sentosa at 7AM to work on Saturday):
worked the whole entire day and only managed to return to Sentosa around 6.30 in the evening.
and went to vivo city(again) via the resort's shuttle bus for dinner.
after catching the last shuttle back to sentosa, showered. tv-ed. zZzed.

how to play!! wasted one saturday)':
no palawan beach, no siloso beach..
nothing more than tanjong beach aka seaweeds beach =/

okay..
the only thing i heart the most was the scenery over at The Sentosa, Beaufort Hotel.
SUPER NICE PLEASE!!!
especially the night view..
love it to pluto..
it's like the whole entire sky is filled with * * * * stars * * * *
so pretty!!

just imagine..
lying beside the pool looking into the night sky.. sound of nature..
how should i describe it..
hmm.. i think you guys should really go stay in The Sentosa to experience it..
it's really a cool place to relax and escape from the hectic Singapore lifestyle(;
must thank my 舅母 for the holiday~
谢了!! (x

random photos will be up hopefully by tomorrow..

p/s: i got to update today because im home early! thanks to my gastric~ =D

凯梅瑞

2009-11-26T13:35:00.001+08:00

DO YOU KNOW?!

CAMRY is actually 凯梅瑞!!!

HAHAHAHA
weird name..

just being random
i need life =/

amanda's last day ):

2009-11-24T23:23:00.003+08:00

im here to rant again..
(what again.. like once in a while only)
hahs

today's Amanda's last day in our company..
had a mini farewell "party" for her..
im so sad please):
for after she leaves, i'll have no one to laugh at my stupid jokes
no one to share my nonsense with..
no one to help me to reduce my workload..
no more true soul..
and most importantly, i'll have no more FRIEND in the office)'x

hate it.hate it.

time in office will be bad without her ):
firstly, it's ida, followed by gerraine, and now, it's amanda..
are jobs available everywhere?
boo!
but i believe it's because 好人有好报.. they are nice people..
so dont have to worry about not having a job(:

[[[AMANDA KOH!
THANKS FOR ALL THE JOYS THAT YOU'VE BROUGHT ME.
THANKS FOR THE GIFTS.
THANKS FOR BEING THE ARTIST ALL THESE MONTHS.
PLEASE TAKE CARE LOADS! ]]]

after her departure, jeslyn toh's life will change for the worse..
it'll be DEAD.
SHIT DEAD.

i want my life.i need my life.give me back my life.

Singapore Media School i want....
)':

2009-11-21T18:21:00.002+08:00

Please help to vote for 孫自佑!!
http://hk.promotions.yahoo.com/buzz2009/tw/#/support/

Thanks =D

yet another working sunday =/

2009-11-15T23:35:00.003+08:00

It's yet another working Sunday..
dread it..
and the bad news is,
i foresee more working Sundays after Amanda leave on the 24th):

this is simply because there'll be SO SO SO MANY things for me to do then
RAHH)x

that apart..

i seriously think that SCV's 都会台 has got SUPER LOUSY editors..
they err EVERY WEEK!!
it's like they just anyhow cut the scenes, thinking that we wont realise..
treat us audience as idiots huh?

just take today's episode as example..
they cut away the entire portion on 许仁杰's performance..
it's SO OBVIOUS please!

so what's this ?
we pay so much to watch shows that are cut here and there?
nothing more than dumb..

i hope that the telecast of the next season will be better..
i will WAIT AND SEE...

okay.. the 5th season has ended officially..
so there'll be no more 孙自佑 till his album is released..
will miss him tonnes
*emo at one corner*

who is his girlfriend?!?!?! i WANNA SEEE @.@

im a puppet

2009-11-08T00:08:00.003+08:00

why is it that i cant make any decision for myself ?

why is it that i have to be my mum's and uncle's puppet?

i followed as instructed just so that i wont make them unhappy; just so to "repay" them..

but it seems that i've spoilt them rotten..

they are getting overboard..
Caution: whatever that i'll be typing here will seriouly hurt them if seen..
but this is the only passage for me to do my rantings..

im suffering.. im so sick and tired of all the nonsense;
till the extend that i cant wait to escape from Singapore..
but that will not happen.. for i doubt HKU will accept me..
im just so stucked here in SG to face all the shit..

ya.. i know they meant well..
i know that they just want to ensure that our life will be better in future..
but what they want is totally not my cup of tea at all!

i didnt like engineering course..
i even chose JC just to avoid taking Civil Engineering Course in poly..
but i eventually gave in and made Civil Engineering my dish..
i accepted the fact that i cant study what i like;
i have to study what the adults want me to..

however, i think the adults are going haywire somewhere..
it's said that it's super hard to survive in the buidling trade now..
and yet, they STILL insist me to take up civil engineering..
so what's this ?

whatever it is, im not concerned about that now..
it's not about taking up Civil Engineering since i've convinced myself to like it..
it's another matter that's making me boil..

i cant mention it here cos it's rather sensitive..
so i'll only say if you ask me..

我很烦啊!!!!

2012.... .... .....

2009-10-17T22:40:00.001+08:00

该如何青春才会不留白？

闭上眼睛。。　

脑里浮出好多好多。。　

但是，梦始终还是梦。。　

难道我这一生就只能做白日梦，还有为别人而活吗？

谁能告诉啊？

我好想勇敢地站起来，张开翅膀展翅高飞。。。　。。。　

<<333 孙自佑

2009-10-12T00:04:00.005+08:00

我爱孫自佑!!

****HEARTS****

*MUACKS*

it's for me to know for you to find out

(x

20-09-2009

2009-09-20T23:08:00.002+08:00

it's 20-09-2009!!

2009-2009! anyone of you went to ROM?!

hahaha..

it's just a random post..

cos i missed 09-09-09.. so just to "register" 2009-2009 here =D

that's all~

teehee!

oh ya! people, please take care lots! (:

7th Night of July~`

2009-08-26T21:12:00.002+08:00

안녕! hello! 你好! สวัสดี!

wahahah! monthly entry indeed!
oh well.. i aint schooling..
how different can my days be?

im just like any other typical office girl,
just that i can
(일)drive out to fetch my siblings,
(이)go to office at random timings(with complimentary naggings)
(삼)walk around for no reason when im sleepy/bored
(사)disturb the workers and transform into a kuku when i dont understand what they say
(오)cut vegetables when i cannot find any other stuff to do

okayokay! i aint like any other office girl..
just because im lady boss' daughter~
unfair i know~ bleahs =D
but but but, i ALWAYS finish my things pretty quickly
and find myself doing more & more & MORE!
i should just slow down right ?
LOL

enough enough..

purpose of updating today it's because
today is the SEVENTH NIGHT OF JULY (lunar calendar)

know why it is raining so so so HEAVILY?

cos 牛郎 & 织女 are chatting with each other!
they so miss each other till they use their tears to tell tales
okay jeslyn's nonsense
but just laugh okay ? keep yourself entertained (:

let's see...
On July 7th the Japanese celebrate The Festival of the Stars--based on the romantic legend of Tanabata. Paper wishes and origami decorations are hung from bamboo tress in honor of the occasion.

History adapted from Wikipedia (:
The festival originated from The Festival to Plead for Skills (乞巧奠; きっこうでん), an alternative name for Qi Xi, which was celebrated in China and also was adopted in the Kyoto Imperial Palace from the Heian Period. The festival spread to the general public by the early Edo period, became mixed with various Obon or Bon (盆）traditions (because Bon was held on 15th of the seventh month then), and developed into the modern Tanabata festival. In the Edo period, girls wished for better sewing and craftsmanship, and boys wished for better handwriting by writing wishes on strips of paper. At this time, the custom was to use dew left on taro leaves to create the ink used to write wishes. Incidentally, Bon is now held on 15 August on the solar calendar, close to its original date on the lunar calendar, making Tanabata and Bon as further separate events.
The name Tanabata is remotely related to the Japanese reading of the Chinese letters 七夕, which used to be read as "Shichiseki" (しちせき). It is believed that a Shinto purification ceremony existed around the same time, in which a Shinto miko wove a special cloth on a loom called a Tanabata 棚機 (たなばた) near waters and offered it to a god to pray for protection of rice crops from rain or storm and for good harvest later in autumn. Gradually this ceremony merged with 乞巧奠（きっこうでん, (The Festival to Plead for Skills) and became Tanabata 七夕. Oddly the Chinese writing 七夕 and the Japanese reading Tanabata (たなばた) joined to mean the same festival, although originally they were two different things, an example of ateji.

Story adapted from wikipedia too(:
Like Qi Xi and Chilseok, Tanabata was inspired by the famous Chinese folklore, The Princess and the Cowherd.
Orihime (織姫, Weaving Princess?), daughter of the Tentei (天帝, Sky King, or the universe itself?), wove beautiful clothes by the bank of the Amanogawa (天の川, Milky Way, lit. "heavenly river"?). Her father loved the cloth that she wove and so she worked very hard every day to weave it. However, Orihime was sad that because of her hard work she could never meet and fall in love with anyone. Concerned about his daughter, Tentei arranged for her to meet Hikoboshi (彦星, Cow Herder Star?) (also referred to as Kengyuu (牽牛?)) who lived and worked on the other side of the Amanogawa. When the two met, they fell instantly in love with each other and married shortly thereafter. However, once married, Orihime no longer would weave cloth for Tentei and Hikoboshi allowed his cows to stray all over Heaven. In anger, Tentei separated the two lovers across the Amanogawa and forbade them to meet. Orihime became despondent at the loss of her husband and asked her father to let them meet again. Tentei was moved by his daughter’s tears and allowed the two to meet on the 7th day of the 7th month if Orihime worked hard and finished her weaving. The first time they tried to meet, however, they found that they could not cross the river because there was no bridge. Orihime cried so much that a flock of magpies came and promised to make a bridge with their wings so that she could cross the river. It is said that if it rains on Tanabata, the magpies cannot come and the two lovers must wait until another year to meet. ---->> heavy rain tonight!! poor thing! ):

The following variation of the story is known in China and Japan: A young farmer named Mikeran discovered on his farm a robe which, unbeknownst to him, belonged to a goddess named Tanabata. Soon after, Tanabata visited Mikeran and asked if he had found it. He lied and told the goddess that he hadn't but would help with her search. Eventually the pair fell in love, were wed and had many children. However, one day Tanabata noticed a piece of cloth which had once belonged to her robe on the roof of Mikeran's hut. His lie discovered, Tanabata agreed to forgive him on the condition that he weave a thousand pairs of straw shoes, but until that time, she would leave him. Mikeran was unable to weave the shoes in his lifetime and thus never met Tanabata again. However, it is said that the pair meet once a year when the stars Altair and Vega intersect.

another saying ~ "people say that it rains on the night of July 7 because the couple feel very sad, and cry when they leave." torrential downpour! awww):

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=s1MHo5gQFeY <-- you can actually see this video if you dont want to read the chunk above.. too late ? o0ps!
i did it on purpose =P

in Japan, there's a song dedicated to this festival.
saw this on youtube.
a cute song it is(:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pDSJhBb71_4

sing together xD

Sasa no ha sara-sara

In Japanese Romaji:
Sasa no ha sara-sara
Nokiba ni yureru
Ohoshi-sama kira-kira
Kingin sunago

In Japanese Text:
笹の葉　さらさら
軒端にゆれる
お星様　キラキラ
金銀砂子

English Translation:
Bamboo leaves are rustling, rustling,
Swaying close to the roof’s edge,
Oh, how the stars are twinkling, twinkling,
Gold and silver grains of sand.

a kawaii version sang by a little girl.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ZVJGlKQcRkg
saw the little boy? he's the cute one =D

next;
Seventh Night of July. Band members should know.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=wF-MZoxZqiQ <- go listen to this band arrangement.
i like it loads(:

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=V53rWXTFya4&NR=1 <- i like this canto song! listen listen! CLOSE YOUR EYES and listen.. haha

something disastrous http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Gj_F2gb1ehQ
funny? your ears are hurting right xD

okay bet there are enough stuff on 七夕 already.
irritated?
what a random post i know..
tralala~

good night all!
and happy studying, people! (x

to "You-know-who-you-are" if you are reading what follows..
sometimes we just cant control what will happen..
im so sorry to hear that..
but you got to stay strong!

it's a new chapter of your life..
but, im still around, always, when you need someone to.
take care loads~ ...

zzzBANG

2009-07-26T23:15:00.005+08:00

HELLO! HELLO!!! HELLLLOOO!!!

another month is gone! gosh~
how fast..
didnt update for the past one month partly becos my anti-virus software expired
so to play safe, i better not use lappy..
otherwise it'll cost a BOMB to get it repaired..

well..
been busy recently too..
cos Gerraine (office girl) resigned and i took over her duty..
bahh~~

everyday's like a routine..
wake up, go office, pick bro and sis, go home, watch shows, slp.
it's like im so dead tired till the extent that i just want to go to bed upon reaching home =/

and the [GOOD?!?] news is that Jeslyn Toh is officially SCHOOL-LESS
i just couldnt understand why..
ya.. i dont understand.. i thought i did better but the results prove otherwise
hah. over-confident ?
BOOHOO you. serve you right.
now that you are school-less, you've let your mum down..
not only that..
let me see how you are going to face your paternal relatives during CNY next year!
bull shit you..

i tried hard.. but maybe not hard enough..
i tried to salvage.. but i failed..
i wasnt given a chance to prove myself..
the grades are everything..
im just stucked with them.. it's forever.

appealing doesnt help at all..
they mentioned that they did go through my application blah and stuff..
but whether they really did,
nobody knows..
simply put, i maybe eliminated based on my grades alone.

it's not that i cant afford to go overseas..
but i cant make myself leave my mum..
i need to be around to help her take care of my siblings..

sigh.

however, the cruel fact is that, it's over.
it's either i start all over again
or just going overseas to pursue that degree that this realistic world requires..

im the residue.
filtered out by our WAOH education system.

but what's so happening with it by the way ?
it has changed people's mindset.
just looking at STOMP alone..
that may just prove to the outside world what 'IT' has done to us.
people are getting self-centered..
all they think about is to do better than the others or what-so-ever..
well all these are fallacies you may say..
it's all up to you, reader.

who cares about what the "residue" comments anyway.

okay. if you are going to console me, im grateful. thanks for that
but i dont need any.. or rather i dont want any..

unless your words can change "unsuccessful" into "successful" on the letters,
otherwise, all you got to do is to leave me alone
and not talk about local university anymore..
they've filtered me off..
i will prove them wrong someday..
i'll show them how "FAR-SIGHTED" they are..
路是自己走出来的。

done with my rantings on that.

mission cleared.

next, I LOVE NIGHT TENJO!! (Hayami Mokomichi)
he's super cute please.
single eyelids. tanned. muscular. & his Cool + Blur face
Riiko (Aibu Saki) is kawaii too! i want her dimples!(:

anyways, Absolute Boyfriend is a 5/5 drama series.
a THUMBS UP Japanese Drama
yes, JAPANESE drama. NOT Korean drama
do catch it if you havent.

OKAERI (:

it's 16th!! june -.-

2009-06-16T22:53:00.002+08:00

IM BACK after a MONTH! hahaha...

it's SIXTEEN june already -.-

so it was MY BIRTHDAY ONE MONTH AGO..
*laugh my ass off*
i cant believe time is passing by so damn quickly):

anyway, msHOO kind of make me force myself to update.
i wanted to update my blog today, about my birthday
but i felt kinda sick just now..
so thought of dropping the idea..
but xinyi wished me HAPPY BIRTHDAY (belated) in korean!
so i MUST update..
THANKS AH =D

okay~ Jeslyn is 19 and a month old now..
19years old isnt fun at all..
totally NOT fun.. life is so boring..
ok, fine. im the one who made my life boring.. hahs

here it goes..
Once upon a time, on 16th MAY 2009, there is a girl named Jeslyn Toh.
It was her birthday! and her beloved friend, msHOO treated her to a movie at
Tiong Bahru Plaza. it was meant to be only the two of them..

They trained down to Tiong Bahru to catch Angels and Demons.
Jeslyn felt kind of weird cos she hadnt been taking public transport since she got her licence.
so msHOO was like "鸡蛋糕！你还说你没有驾车出门" (something like that)

"when i dont drive, i walk. that's why i say i dont drive when i go out" Jeslyn exclaimed.

moreover, the BIGGEST SUB-URBAN MALL is just 5-10min walk from jes' house
why bother to take bus?
HAHA.
and she hardly goes out you see =D

so they reached TB and msHOO with the ever so small bl**d*r wanted to go to the toilet..
so jeslyn followed her thinking that it's true.
but that was actually to prevent jeslyn from seeing someone she shouldnt..

off into the cinema.. there were two girls sitting right next to jeslyn
she thought that it was one of the girls' birthday as well cos she saw a birthday card
and didnt doubt anything.. she told msHOO that they can change their seats since the cinema
was quite empty.

SUDDENLY, the girl beside Jeslyn turned over and asked "You dont want to sit with me ah?"
OMG~
so the two ladies were AMANDA LEONG AND LIM XINEE!!!
--" <-- Jeslyn was like this!! yes!! like --"ed
HOO XINYI, AMANDA and LIM XINEE were DISAPPOINTED by jeslyn's reaction.
hahahahha!!

sorry loves! i didnt know how to react.
HAHA!
but thanks so much for the surprise! *loves*

blah blah blah~ the movie ended.

and msHOO continued to keep me in the dark.
she was so secretive please.
and the cap she was wearing made her look like a SPY =X

so we met up with Joflin and went to this weird place "FUSIONOPOLIS"
pardon me if i spelt wrongly =D
(and it's not a weird place lah. just me.)
so the girls treated me to a KOREAN MEAL!
THANKS THANKS THANKS!! *MUACKS*

the place is COOL please..
and the best thing was that msHOO FRIGHTENED the waiter away!
*roll on floor laughing*
the food there is pretty yummylicious *thumbs-up*

chatted, toilet-ed and SWEAT-ED after doing all the JUMP SHOTS
it's a total madness.. haha.
yet to receive the photos cos i hadnt been appearing online =X
see photos at amanda/xinyi's blog k =D

thanks to the sweetieS, i enjoyed my birthday =D
off to family celebration after that.. Joflin joined me (:
over at the office was fun too.
moved about, played and karaoke-ked =D
fun fun fun! the photos for this is added to account kays.
update next time =X

19th Birthday wasnt as RAR RAR as last year and the year before
though it was a simple, but i heart it totally
SPECIAL THANKS TO THE GIRLS (AMANDA, Joflin, XinEe and XinYi) and my MUM!
my MUM COOKED FOR ME!! the moon was blue that night im sure =D

finally, im really grateful for all who wished me.. thanks for remembering my birthday!;

SMS, in order of receiving;
weekeong (being the 1st but on 2359, 15th May),
xinyi (2nd but 15th too haha),
amanda (1st on 16th),
winnie, patrick, aiting, joflin, kok keong, hoyin, mama bf, MUM!, alvin, john, ivy, gugu, boon siong, hassan, weilun, ke zhiyun, kenny, tingting jie, jeffrey, xingyi,
JONathan Han!(all the way from BRUNEI! thanks! =D),
rena koh, weiquan, rena png, minyen, bingxiang, melvin kong, yishen,
and jonathan phua(wanted to be the last but ended up sending at 0007, 17th MAY haha!)

for face to face wishes, there are alot
mostly family members cos im not attending school =/

internet(mainly facebook)
zheyuan, mabel, tommy, ruiyang, melvin lim, clarence chua, ah long, mrHALIFI, peishan and karyan..

if i missed out anyone, im sorry k.
my laggy brains arent functioning well after rotting for so long..
i heart you too even if i miss out your name k =D

and THANKS FOR THE WALLET!
- amanda
- cjj
- joflin
- melvin kong
- xiangfeng
- xinee
- xinyi

THANKS FOR MAKING MY BIRTHDAY A LOVELY ONE! <33

p/s : Terminator Salvation is not bad 3.75/5(:

fake lin chi ling

2009-06-08T17:07:00.001+08:00

go have a good laugh!~

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=73175

japan trip

2009-05-15T23:25:00.008+08:00

im back!

just in time before msHOO asks me for the Japan trip photos =D

XINYI.. im not updating everything at one shot ok~

i will update the 特别 ones

and maybe like 2% for each day only =X

hahah~

to begin, let me blow your mind first

cos i was like D: when the tour guide mentioned these;

1) Japan has only ONE airport that operates for 24hours the others shuts around 9pm(Jpn time)

2) there are THREE chinatowns

3) Tokyo Disneyland is not located in Tokyo

4) Tokyo Tower (东京铁塔) was built by KOREAN Engineers not JAPANESE

5) the richest man in Japan is a KOREAN =D

learnt something? hahas

okay let the grandmother talk~

it's was drizzling on the very first day..

and the plane land HORRIBLY!!

it felt like roller-coaster going down-track

and i burst into tears immediately (i HATE rollercoaster)

after checking in;

Japan's cool weather greeted me~ *shakes head; i like korea more*

okay okay~ im naggy.. just look at the photos~ [ some are kinda blur ): ]

dayONE

to be continued~~...

YUCK!

2009-05-12T16:46:00.001+08:00

will you eat this kinda weird looking bread ?!
it's like so yucky please
*puke*

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=70089

i cant see the traffic light!~ HAHA

2009-04-30T15:08:00.005+08:00

the pictures below are funny!
let's all laugh together~
hahaha!

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=60487

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=60460

will you install IU on ur bike?

i told you! SINGAPOREANS~ HAHA!

wind!

2009-04-30T01:12:00.004+08:00

remember about the SUPER STRONG wind
that caused trees in many areas to collapse/break?
this is what a Stomper caught just before the wind came i think
super cool~

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=67944

and anyways,
i think it's a total disgrace!
just look at the comments posted on stomp~
from SINGAPOREANS you know!!
really 丢脸丢到家~
not only that they're childish,
the language is a big issue too..

it's not like my english is perfect~
but i think the comments should be filtered,
for it reflects on us, SINGAPOREANS

bleah blah bluhh~

funny~

2009-04-27T13:47:00.003+08:00

Any emo/emo-prone souls out there ?

take a look at the website below..
tell me if it's effective k =D

http://shine.yahoo.com/channel/health/9-ways-to-get-happy-in-the-next-30-minutes-444895/

then look at this..
kinda stupid.. just look that these singaporeans! hahaha!~

http://talkback.stomp.com.sg/forums/showthread.php?t=61571

cute aunties

2009-04-22T14:49:00.005+08:00

WAHAHA!!
THIS IS SUPER CUTE~

TAKE A LOOK!(:
http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=67691

ALSO THIS,
am i LOUD and ILL-TEMPERED ? hmm
http://talkback.stomp.com.sg/forums/showthread.php?t=68860

fast and furious 4

2009-04-20T17:54:00.008+08:00

HEY ALL!

It's not like what XinYi said ok..

aint that evil to post other random entries

in hope that you guys will forget about my Japan Trip

HAHA!

editing THOUSAND pictures aint fun..

so i merely loaded them into my hard disk =X

okay okay~

XINYI!..

i will do it SOON =D

caught FAST AND FURIOUS 4
last saturday night with my bro sis and cousin
I HEART IT TO PLUTO MAN!!
i love the all cars inside.. the stunts were great too!
*drools*

i want a sporty car too..
Nissan Skyline GT-R
Honda NSX
a porsche isnt bad too =D
*daydream*
>.<>

below is NISSAN SKYLINE GT-R
NICE RIGHT! i love it more than myself =D

k lah~ take care all!
i will be back soon

it's not about waiting but the principle
all you got to do was to tell me you arent free or whatever
not keeping mum.

and YOU! arent a good father to your kids.
so YOU! are in no shoes to comment about me.
just SHH and SHOO.

pleasant weather = better memory!

2009-04-16T11:08:00.002+08:00

came across this news on yahoo's website..
not sure how true it is..
cos it says people have better memory on cold windy rainy days D:

singapore's so HOT and SUNNY
get it? =D

hmm
maybe you can do some researches for more information (share with me! hah)

click on the link to see the article i read~
http://sg.news.yahoo.com/afp/20090411/tts-health-australia-memory-79adaf4.html

alert

2009-04-11T16:03:00.002+08:00

DIPLOMA HOLDERS / GRADUATES

for CIVIL ENGINEERING NEEDED!!

be it your friends or relatives;

please help me to keep a look out~

contact me at winter_lyn@hotmail.com if you dont have my mobile no.

thanks<3

earth hour ?

2009-04-10T01:12:00.003+08:00

EARTH HOUR ?!

sure sure!~

let's all have a CANDLELIT SHOWER =D

random and retarded(as in slow!;)~

poor kid):

2009-04-06T01:03:00.004+08:00

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?id=65054

saw this on STOMP.

thought that the comments from Singaporeans were kinda..

WEIRD and some; CHILDISH.

WWW. -> World Wide Web.

just imagine the WHOLE WORLD can access it so easily.

shame shame shame on those who made those kiddy comments~

but Jeslyn agrees that the local "MOTHER"* of these foreign workers

are RIDICULOUS. simply put.

*cant be too specific. cos in singapore, even if we are granted with "freedom of speech",
so long as the big heads are unhappy with whatever you say,
you can just wash your ass and prepare to enjoy life in changi.

comments!(:

SYF 2009

2009-03-31T16:23:00.003+08:00

THOUGH IT'S NOT WHAT WE EXPECTED IT TO BE,

MY DEAREST FSMB KIDS,

IM SO PROUD OF ALL OF YOU!!

AND MY CLAR KIDDOS,

I HEART YOU KIDS TO PLUTO~

YOU KIDS ARE FANTASTIC <@

2009-03-29T23:44:00.001+08:00

OMG!!!

I CANT BELIEVE THAT I ACTUALLY TOOK

ONE THOUSAND AND FIFTY PHOTOS IN JAPAN!!

HOW SCARY >.<

back from japan

2009-03-22T23:48:00.000+08:00

HEYO ALL!

JESLYN IS BACK FROM JAPAN BUT IS CURRENTLY TOO BUSY TO UPDATE

SHE'LL TRY TO DOWNLOAD THE PHOTOS ASAP

AND TELL YOU ABOUT THE TRIP,

AFTER THE FINANCIAL YEAR CLOSES AND WHEN TERM CONTRACT ENDS

THAT'LL BE PRETTY SOON (:

I LOVE THE TREES IN SINGAPORE =D

jeslyn u suck

2009-03-08T15:00:00.005+08:00

long awaited news for those who read my blog,

GCE 'A'-LEVELS RESULTS.

i expected it to be a bomb..

but i didnt expect it to be such a BIG BOMB...

what's done cannot be undone..

it's impossible to go back again..
so i have to walk on..
i will keep walking...
keep trying..
till the day i drop dead

제스린 또제잉! 加油!

[ there can be miracles when you believe~]
[ 相信天无绝认之路 ] - 出路

WATCH THE VIDEO!

tired tired

2009-02-18T22:30:00.002+08:00

look at the date!
long since i updated...
been very very busy nowadays..

tied down by TONNES of work):
and there are so many happenings in office..
helping in whatever ways i can
but all that i can say is that,
the ADULTS in the management are BIAS
and SUPER DUPER UBER BIAS

JESLYN HATES THAT!

why cant they just separate personal relations from work?
i dont care that if ass is your friend or whatsoever
so long as he did something that's wrong,
he should jolly well face the music
instead of loitering and blabbering nonsense in the office!

i dont care if my mum will read this entry
[i hope she does read it, WAKE UP and talk some sense]
cos i really think that the management doesnt know how to manage the company
in terms of PR..
sucks inside out.

sometimes, i really wonder who are humans to them.
their own friends or their clients only perhaps..
cos they'll "面带笑容" to those people mentioned always..

S-I-C-K-E-N-I-N-G

but well..
to be fair, they do TALK sense SOMETIMES
maybe when the moon is blue..
how should i put it?
they are too arrogant?
they THINK that they are already very nice
but it's in their own way...
people dont agree with the way they put it..

and sometimes,
i think my mother is just the older and more mature version of my sister
mature in terms of the way of handling some issues..
not as in knowing how to think correctly..
hard to understand ? aiya. i dont know how should i put it..
but she just does things beyond my expectations
sighS for that.

oh ya.
there's this new silly old man who really pissed me off like @#@$#@$@
really feel like saying all those vulgarities you know...
can you just imagine how SUPER pissed im? @.@
he offended me RIGHT FROM THE FIRST DAY AT WORK
he BANGED so hard into me and pretended nothing happened!
so angry.

and today, he COMMANDED me to do things
ASSHOLE! and it's just his 3rd day.

i HATE people who command me.
ask nicely and i will be more than willing to help.
but not command
though i will still get things done, but the fella is gonna get blacklisted by me.
and i mean it..
im going all out to give him shit..
i dont care if he's family friend or if he's older than me
i wont swallow the nonsense from him.
even if i will get shit from the management.
I-DONT-CARE ~

im not the only one he offended..
many others dislike his arrogance too..
so it's not that im bad..
now im collecting evidences of his sicko doings..
shall blow him off when time's ripe
heh heh..

ok. enough of that shitty pants.

Jeslyn is FINALLY learning korean language!
first lesson was alright..
but it's getting tougher..
i wont give up still..
*pull up my socks*
haha.

let's do some typing..
안 녕 하 세 요!
저 는 jeslyn 입 니 다~
반 갑 습 니 다!(:

gosh. im typing so slowly..
not familiar with keys yet >.<
i will improve.
okay~ it's late..
off to bed~

*yawns*
take care all!
loves~

January is gone~

2009-02-01T23:45:00.002+08:00

we consumed the first month of 2009
so super quickly!):
11 months left..

and gosh.
CNY will be over soon..
can you believe it ?
*faints*

life is kinda meaningless for jeslyn..
it's getting boring..
i dread to wake up to nothing..
nothing for me to look forward to..
nothing for me to do..
and yet, i cant have my life to myself..
as in.. there are still many things that are beyond my control
though im 18 going on nineTEEN!!
the very last age with -TEEN behind..
unless i get to live will 113 years old..
which is CRAZY! pointless for a useless bum to live so long
haha!

know what ?
the adults in my family are more weird than weird..
they are just so hard and difficult to understand
and sometimes,
i cant help it but to say that they are FAKES~
they hide themselves pretty well..

well..
everyone hides..
but these adults..
they are like unexplanable..
i dont know what's on their mind..
and i believe, they find me hard to swallow too..
and all that they can say is,
"you are still a kid so i'll have the final say"

when will this ever end..

jeslyn finds 林宥嘉 cute
and 伯乐 is a nice song(:

release of A result~

2009-01-30T10:39:00.003+08:00

"A-Level" Results are out in Brunei!~

GOSH!

it's gonna be Singapore horseys' turn soon

i so dont feel like knowing my results..
i know i didnt do well~
dread that feeling >.<

初三

2009-01-28T12:47:00.004+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!!

it's 大年初三 today..
and this is the worse CNY ever..
im like doing nothing..
just rotting..

dont understand why are the adults so $#@$@#
they cancelled the celebration at home
then suggested that we'll celebrate in the office..
but when we went there, we were like facing the walls,
doing nothing..

so bright daylight of 初一 was totally ruined..
but thank god..
it got better when i go to my grandpa's house..
at least we got to chat and see humans instead of computers and walls..
and i got the car to myself..
as in my mum allowed me to drive my siblings home(:

drank till 4am before sleeping..
so it's 初二 already!~
woke up and went to grandpa's again..
since my house is like a haunted mansion..
everything's so DEAD..
dont even have the festive mood
dread it)x

ah gong cooked noodles for us..
it's so yummylicious that i swallowed TWO bowls of it!
i think excessive alcohol makes people hungry too~
that's y people have beer belly
yucks!
hahas

drove to pasir ris to pick mama bf's kids..
and back to OFFICE again~
it's uncle's birthday~
and gerald celebrated together with him..
so yea..
but was rotting too..

then my family went to bowl
i cant bowl cos of my back
so didnt join them and continued rotting in office
and my day ended with tv..

what a CNY right?
for the first time, i feel like returning to school..
cos there'll be something for me to do at least..

sigh.

11th death anniversary..

2009-01-25T23:35:00.002+08:00

it's Chinese New Year Eve..

i know...

but it isnt CNY eve to me..

for it's my dad's 11th death anniversary..

11years passed just like that..
yea..

just
like
that....

today isnt a good day at all..
and i doubt this CNY will be a happy one..
it just feel wrong..
CNY shouldnt be like this! ):

bahh!
i dont know what's wrong..
hope tomorrow will be a better day..

park yong ha (:

2009-01-19T22:17:00.006+08:00

im here to recommend a korean drama..

[ ON AIR ]

i think it's nice!
it's a SBS production, starring
- kim ha-neul 金荷娜
- lee beom-soo 李凡秀
- song yoon-a 宋允儿
and and and
PARK YONG-HA! 朴龙河 - loves!!
highly recommended by Jeslyn Toh (:

i heart park yong-ha~
he's super kawaii please(x

BUT!! dont get the wrong idea..
it's NOT because i find him cute
so im recommending this drama..
but that i personally think that it's a very good drama
which portrays those behind-the-scene works..

people usually see the final "art-piece"
without knowing how much effort is put in to create the work..
yep. so this drama shows it all(:

that's all! im going to find the ost xD

park yong-ha says CHEESE(x

wat a sis

2009-01-18T01:46:00.002+08:00

sometimes,
there are some things...
that you will never understand..

sometimes,
there are some things...
that you thought you've already understood..

sometimes,
there are some things..
that you will remind yourself not to do..

sometimes,
there are some things...
that are just beyond your control..

but..
everytime,
jeslyn is always the evil one..
the sucky one..
the bad girl who never get caught - as suggested

and also..
the stupid one who gave all she can for nothing..

i agree that i aint angelic..
so ?
that isnt a crime..

she is jeslyn
and she is she..

im so gonna close my eyes..
pretend that i cant see anything..
but no matter how hard i wanna do that,
that's no way to..
cos im jeslyn...

sigh.
whatever..

the night sky is SUPER PRETTY now..
im down and they are out as companions~
heart them tonnes..

im off to bed..
tadas all~

DROVE ALONE~~

2009-01-11T23:48:00.002+08:00

HEYO!!!
i was granted the permission to drive BY MYSELF today~
drove my bro and sis to JE swimming complex..
without any other adult!
but my mama was following me behind when going la..
i was alone with my jiu mu driving infront of me when we were coming back..
although it's like being supervised also,
but at least there's no adult in the car itself mah xD

i will be free soon :P
but i still miss driving manual car..
gonna lose touch soon )x

hmm
went to play water in the pool today..
and jogged and badminton-ed yesterday..
im aching like cranberries..
didnt exercise so long already..
PIG
BOO!

im tired.. working EARLY tomorrow..
cos there's what "tool box meeting"
regarding safety precautions for the workers
and jeslyn's job is to SET UP the projector and do the controlling..
im like doing random stuff..
i have no idea what's the scope..
i just do everything as instructed >.<
if there's no instruction, i will be rotting like corpse
hahaha

enough of rubbish..
im gone~
tadas! (:

jeslyn working?! gosh! DES =D

2009-01-08T20:49:00.008+08:00

HELLO!

im back..

for the FIRST POST OF YEAR 2009!~ (:

first thing first..

special thanks to PATRICK, DESMOND n JON
for coming to my house to accompany me chat the entire night
on new year day!

remember i mentioned that i was like all alone

watching the live telecast on ch8 ?

but my night got brightened up by patrick and his cousins,

DES and JON (:

they came to my house around 2am on new year day..

was suppose to meet them downstairs for a drink and chit-chat session

but my mum asked me to invite them up instead..

so i did..

and TADANGS!

we drank and chatted till like 7+am the next day

D: ?!

haha.

i drank alot..

till my stomach was like TOTALLY filled with alcohol..

SHIOK

we were talking about almost everything..

and i heart the ghost stories Des told me..

i love ghost stories.. let alone Des' and Jon's personal experiences..

10/10 man~

i wanna go Brunei some day too..

i told my mum that too..

haha

Des and Jon are interesting people

they are fun to be with too(:

all in all, THANKS FOR ACCOMPANYING ME!

Mr Patrick, Mr Desmond and Mr Jonathan~ (x

so on sunday, 4th of Jan,

Des n Jon went back to Brunei ):

Joey and Jeslyn went to the airport EARLY in the morning to send them off

it's been long since i last enter the airport..

i LOVE airport xD

and i wanna go overseas )x

okay random.

we crapped for awhile before they check in..

yea.. and sayonara ~

okay.. up next..

jeslyn is WORKING in her mum's company now..

and all i can say is that WORKING SUCKS!

it's so tiring):

i mean when there are things for me to do lah..

if there's nothing for me to do,

i'll just rot while listening to my mp3 or walk around..

and rotting isnt tiring xD

been driving here and there under supervision of mama's bf..

cos they say i aint experienced enough to drive alone..

but just now, my mama say she'll let me drive alone soon!

YAY!

ChEeRi0s!

but i miss driving manual car):

what else what else..

okay.. O level results will be out soon all the best to you kids!(:

hmm..

OHYA! i think im really becoming more like an ah lian now..

as in like im becoming more daring..

like Tuesday..

i went to westmall to buy beancurd..

then the #%$ lao charbo HOU YUQIN's attitude sucked like #%$#^%

then joey went to say something like

buay song then dont work..

and that charbo mumbled something..

but too bad.. i noticed that..

so i shouted right at her face..

she tiamed and say 你请慢走..

what the?! --"

but whatever it is, you get what i meant by im becoming like an ah lian now ?

bleahs..

k lah.. off for tv!

take care all~

last day of 2008

2008-12-31T22:43:00.000+08:00

today's the last day of 2008..
how fast..
but first thing first..
HAPPY belated BIRTHDAY JONATHAN!!
wanted to be the last to wish you but i dozed off even before sending the sms >.<

2008..
a year full of ups and downs..
but it's saddening that i dont remember much of the happy happenings..
it's always the sad ones that's being engraved..
yes.. my mind is so filled with all those incidents..

family. relationship. friendship. studies. me.
just so many things happened this year..
just far too many.. "unhealthy diet"..

though it's like "too much for consumption",
but im glad that i survived through..
mostly alone.. but some with the help of friends...
thanks people!
thanks for being around when im down and lost..

though time flies..
but this december is one of the slowest month
a month that's hardest for me to digest..
only the people concerned knows what it meant..
if you dont, that's just too bad..
it's not meant for you then..
and you have got nothing to do with it..
but dont be sad..
there's nothing wrong if the matter doesnt concern you at all right ?
haha.

okay.. went to watch bedtime stories with siblings
before the movie, we went to CSC bukit batok for bowling..
the attitude of the staff there SUCKS!
there was this guy he spoke to me like i just killed his entire family..
i tolerated his nonsense initially..
but his attitude got from bad to worst..
i suppose he thinks that girls can be bullied..
but too bad he got the wrong girl.
he said that he can refund and stomped back to the counter..

since we didnt have much time left before the movie,
i followed him for the refund..
he wanted to refund 2 games..
but my sis say we dont need their stinking money for the 2 games
and requested them to refund us the 2nd game..
then you know what that idiot said ?

"your friend started it first"
ya! he said this to my sis..
i got so angry that i just SHOUTED right in his face
so loudly that the entire place got so deadly quiet for a second..
the he was like "nevermind"
shit him.. but i think i managed to embarass him for that second..
dont offend me.. i've LOUD voice..
dont go overboard and you'll be fine..
cos i hardly express my anger this way in public places..
the most i will just mumble some stuff and walk off..

okay.. that incident off my mind..
back to 2008..
so many things happened..
Food Crisis. Beijing Olympic. SiChuan Earthquake.
Singapore winning the bid to host Youth Olympic.
Financial Tsunami. Mas Selamat escaped.
Death of first Singaporean during Terrorist attack in Mumbai.
the list goes on..
just too many to list..

but what has passsed is past..
they are history..
be it good or bad, it's over..
life's a live telecast..
there's nothing you can do..
you cant encore.. you cant go back and re-do the same thing..
the only thing you can do is to keep them in your memory bank
or erase them by not brooding over it..

for me, i will keep all that i remember close to my heart..
be it happy or sad ones..
i thank all who "participated" in all the happenings in my life..
especially to those who never gave me up
and the one who never fail to stand by me no matter how annoying i get..
i know im annoying but you never admit everytime..
thanks for not wanting to hurt me..

guess what's the time now ?
about 12 soon..
updating so slowly cos im watching the countdown show at the same time..
andknow what?
i watching it alone in the living room
how bad can this be..
it's WORSE than last year..
counting down alone infront of the tv and lappy..
not even a single soul entertaining me by any means..
as in friends la! not those souls at Vivo though it's like LIVE telecast..
but nevermind..
im used to it already..

okay..
new year coming.. shall stop emoing now..
fireworks at boonlay soon..
tadas all..

thanks 2008..
i love 2008 for everything..
thank YOU!
i love YOU``

good bye 2008;
open arms for 2009
may you be a blessing one <33>

i dont know..

2008-12-28T23:07:00.002+08:00

what a day..
didnt go as planned..
too tired after all the exercises yesterday...
and slept kinda EARLY today..
lalaland dislike me i guess~

mum woke me up to witness something beyond our expectations..
i was like..
HUH?!
WHAT THE?!
OH MY GOD!!
WHAT'S THIS?!
NONSENSE!
RUBBISH!~

sometimes i really dont know what's with people..
what's in their mind all the while..
what resulted in their behaviour and stuff..

how nice if i get to read people's mind right?
then i can like prevent myself from doing what i shouldnt..
or stop people from doing what they shouldnt..
then i can guide people back to the path they should be taking..
okay.. it's easier to say though..

all i can say is..
know what you are doing..
make sure your conscience is clear.. .
make sure you wont harm anyone else..
respect those that you should..
know who's really there for you [for some people's forte is to bootlick/fake]
and..
know your limits..
dont overestimate yourself..

i always over-estimate myself i guess..
i thought that everything will be or can be under my control..
but.. it's not so..
some things' just didnt go as planned..

strike the iron while it's hot ?
趁需而入?
趁火打劫?
雪中送炭?
what other phrases can i use to describe ?

dreadfully tired..
worn off~
just who are you..
who's typing this ?
passerby A ?

im not thinking..
im writing whatever that comes to my mind..
gone~

only if i really am..

Merry Xmas

2008-12-25T23:17:00.002+08:00

HOHOHO!! MERRY CHRISTMAS ALL!! ~~
it's christmas again..
how fast..
gosh~

and Happy Birthday Jeffrey!
Mr OLDED MAN~
wahaha

okay..
this year's christmas isnt happening at all..
it's just like a sunday to me..

but i heart my xmas gifts totally!!
the best gift this year is that i passed my driving test!
yes!
after a month of hardwork,
i passed the driving test!
i burst into tears upon knowing that i passed..
i was so so so so so so nervous x infinity throughout the test!
cos once you mount kerb or knock into the poles,
it is IMMEDIATE failure you know!
but im blessed.. i didnt mount kerb, neither did i knock into the poles(:

praises to my instructor who put in so much effort into teaching me
im a problematic kid okay..
isnt an easy task to teach me..
and he's like risking his life when teaching me..
poor him..

okay.. the next gift is from my mum..
she bought me the snowflake necklace from pohheng..
weets..
love it..
but kinda dangerous for me to wear it..
later kena rob..
but THANKS MUM!(:

that's about all~
ohya. i drove my family to pasir ris today..
went on expressway for the first time like 1+ am today..
then again at around 5+pm..
driving on expressway is like SO DIFFERENT!
cos for the first time, your speed exceed 70km/hr..
so fun..
but im still kinda unstable..
especially when there are BIG vehicles beside me..
haha.
i want to drive well..
so will continue to work hard..
till the day my mum allows me to drive on my own..
JIAYOU! (;

Jeslyn hearts manual car more than auto after trying my mum's car):

take care all!
loves~

sick again >.<

2008-12-18T15:29:00.002+08:00

phrase of the yesterday and today;
"DRINK MORE WATER OKAY?!"

okay okay..
i will..
jeslyn is SICK again.. weakling..
just give up your citizenship as an earthling and return to pluto
scram! >.<

people, do drink more water and TAKE CARE LOTS!

xinyi~~ im lazy to post the photos...
HAHA =X

2008-12-16T23:41:00.002+08:00

我不是你想像那麽勇敢
多想让你保护能流泪一场
让我放下武装像个孩子一样
单纯的把爱情放在你心上

我不是你想像那么勇敢 - 梁文音

你说你要走了
不知何时能相见

你说你心碎了
只剩下一点点思念

你说你累了
想结束流浪的明天

你说你困了
再也不想睁开双眼

你走的那天是下着雪雨的天
我的思念茫茫无边
看雪雨狠狠的打你的脸
我的心痛得没有语言

你走的那天是下着雪雨的天
我的思念茫茫无边
离开站台的哪一瞬间
泪水已模糊了我的双眼

雪雨 - 梁文音

Happy Birthday to TOMMY

2008-12-14T01:02:00.003+08:00

HOLY!!
i just remembered that i promised TOMMY to give him my 700th entry on his Birthday!!
how how how!!!!
it's only the 621st entry..
this shows how long i have not been updating >.<

will Tommy be disappointed?
im sorry dearest OGL... didnt mean to forget =/
hope you dont mind =x
i treat you to.. the PEA SNACK k ? xD

anyway, HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO YOU!
STAY BLESSED AND HAPPY! (:

13th DEC`
HAPPY BIRTHDAY, YULUN!
HOPE YOU WILL GET FANTASTIC RESULTS on the 10th of Jan(:

today wasnt a really good day..
"error carry forward"
yea.. from yesterday..

went cycling with my aunt and bro at pasir ris park..
learnt how to cycle with only one hand controlling the handle..
i know it's chicken to many..
but i just learnt how to..
it's an achievement to me.. can?
i even learnt how to talk on phone and sms while cycling..
haha
that was fun..

after that we went to old airport road to eat..
but for jeslyn-doesnt-know-what-reason,
i puked when i reached home >.<
showered and when out myself..
went to buy korean rice cake for my mum..
and delivered to office..
but they werent there..
they went to CSC for some lucky draw thing..
so i can only entertain myself..

Jie and Mason entertained me too..
weird jie likes to attack people's nose -.-
so he got kicked and scratched by me..
Mason entertain me by playing PSP for me..
was playing street fighter..
but there's is ah pui i cant win..
so asked mason to help me..
but ended up, he helped me play..
play till dont know how to do home..
hah

heard from mum that if Jie was present at the lucky draw thingy,
he could have been able to take home $10K
but he's just so suay.. maybe it's cos she bullied me =x

went for dinner at BB after buying russell's food..
didnt eat much..
felt bloated..
and the dishes were spicy..
eat till very gan khor..

after that drove for a short distance..
scary lah!
first time driving on the road at night...
nearly wet my pants~
but im steady.. i didnt..

know what kuku thing i did ?
my left leg was "searching" for clutch when i was like driving a AUTO car >.<
how stupid can i get..
one thing i learnt about myself;
Jeslyn, you are stupid. thanks~

sleepy sleepy..
anyway, i wish the temperature will drop further,
so that i can get to see my babies change color!
my hammies are winter white..
the book states that their coat will change colour during winter..
and i think it's kinda true..
cos after a night of 18degree celsius, fur behind star's ears became white!
i verified with my maid..
so i aint lying or dreaming..
my babies are my miracles..
loving them is so much easier...

i thought we were getting there..
but the cruel fact is that you flared..
it's a real tight slap..
i know i deserve it..
but why not offer a real slap?
i think it'll be better than that given by verbal or actions..
how long will i take?

2nd police report

2008-12-13T00:13:00.002+08:00

sorry for not blogging ~
was busy..
today's SO HAPPENING!~
went for driving.. was alright..

this is the HAPPENING PART...
read on..

after that went mama's office awhile..
then went to bugis area to find the thingy longpor wants..
while crossing the road,
there was this couple who cut my path and the guy said "what the"

my reaction was "what the what?"
then he got buay song and stared at me..
given my nature, of cos i rolled my eyes at him
then he told his girlfriend that i gin-ed him..
didnt want to care about him initially..
but i think that guy just wanna act macho infront of his gf..
he pointed middle finger at me then kept staring on..
he even stood outside OG to see where we were going..

after that uncle say he "fingered" to ask him over..
so uncle went over..
but he said some vulgarities that made my mum burst into flames..
so uncle and mum argued with him..

that guy super HUM man..
dare to say dont dare to admit..
then keep denying and talk cock..
that was still ok.. but his attitude really sucked big time..

uncle wanted to let him go..
but upon letting him off, he said "dont ever let me see your daughter again"
then uncle got SUPER HOT so was mum..
mum say he's threatening.. as in kong he
so she must make a police report -.-

they were practially SHOUTING at each other
and the jing dian was
"what you mean by you dont want to see my daughter?"

i think those who dont know what happened may misunderstood that jeslyn got dumped
and her parents are "revenging" for her..
super embarassing okay...
but i see that guy's face, i also *roll eyes*
so ACT okay..
it's like he's only step from hell and he still doesnt want to give in..
*faints*

so uncle summoned the police..
and this is the SECOND police report done by him
but im the the cause of it..
i know im a trouble maker..
this time round; thanks to my mouth..

the police take SUPER LONG time to arrive alright..
my back hurt like it's going to break any time..

yes, my back problem is visiting me again..
it felt like it has dislocated one sunny day..
cos when i wanted to stand up from the chair,
there was a SHARP pain between my backbone and the hipbone..
and i couldnt move my legs..
i thought im paralysed for that moment lah!
freaked me out..
i dragged myself to hold on to something firm and stable..
and tried to stand straight..
"crock" was all that i heard and i was so relieved..
cos my legs are responding again..
i wonder what happened..
will i become paralysed one day ? ):

okay back to the topic..
the police FINALLY arrived..
took statements..
pretty obvious that the HJ guy is denying everything and favouring himself..
but whatever the case, i spoke the truth..
i have nothing to fear of..
i like the policeman.. he's nice(:
his name is NICOLAS PHUA
hoyin! do you know him ? haha
okay.. so another policeman recorded my name and stuff..

policePHUA asked that cocky guy to apologise..
that guy is about to enter NS
so policePHUA ask him to like apologise and settle peacefully
my mum was saying if that guy didnt apologise, she will take him to court..
so HIONG please..
abit over la.. it's only over the word "WHAT" -.-

so policePHUA allowed us to leave the scene first..
after that we went over to my mum's friend's stall..
stayed for quite some time.. they were talking about the incident
and chatting randomly..

and know what?
when we were about to leave the carpark,
we saw the couple again!
he was staring at our car..
can see he's still SUPER BUAY SONG..
and so was he's girlfriend..
but like i care..

mum was saying i have to record the timing and stuff..
cos he might have remembered our car plate and may do funny things -.-
i think she's thinking too much..
but i still record whatever she wanted anyway..
and this entry will serve as a record
should anything happen to the car, he's gone man..

hmm..
we left the carpark around 8.23pm..
that "HERO's" carplate number was SJH4511E
red in colour..
didnt manage to see what car is it.. yea.

he better pray hard that jeslyn will be dandy fine..
otherwise he'll be in deep shit..
cos my mum told the policemen that should anything happen to me,
that guy will be the first suspect, for he threatened me~
poor thing..

so guys, dont act cool
people say say then forget it..
dont keep arguing back..
just apologise and leave..

okay that's the HAPPENING stuff...

some internal matters next.. can skip it..
i just managed to recover a little from my emo-ness, and im faced with shit again..
why is everything happening at the same time ?

i didnt realise that im so disgustingly disgusting..
i didnt know that im actually like what my sis mentioned in her blog..
i really cannot believe my own eyes.. but it's a fact that it's written there..
im lost for actions..
how should i respond ?
act like i dont know anything ?
or just wash my hands out of everything ?

to me, my sis is just trying to get attention from her friends..
she's one pampered and spoilt brat like me..
but she's saying till like she's cinderella..
ill-treated, neglected, not cared for..
when will she ever wake up ?
im really disappointed with what she said..
or is it really me ?

im the source of problem again ?

but people, get things clear..
im not trying to make people pity me..
im not trying to say that im oh-holy-so-nice..
i just find it so hurting to see that the facts arent stated..

this is the world we are living in..
it's either you take it or leave it..

jeslyn! the world is cruel..
stop thinking that it's so pretty and colourful..
stop lying to yourself..
the world aint nice at all ..

you dont know what others are thinking..
you dont know who's true and who's the wolf in sheep skin
you only have you with you all the time..
but dont trust yourself too ..

well..
some words are said for the sake of saying..
some are said to ease pain, some to make things better..

whatever it is, perhaps i really do need a super mirror to take a good look at myself..
jeslyn, who are you?

weird parents

2008-12-04T23:28:00.003+08:00

http://singaporeseen.stomp.com.sg/singaporeseen/viewContent.jsp?commentPageNo=1&id=43191#comment

i think some parents are weird..
they are like...
making a fuss out of EVERYTHING ?
what do you think ?

BS` there's no height limit(:

derek` where where ?! hahahah =P

xinyi` my blog is still dead.. im lazy.. haha.. will update the pics soon k ? (:

2008-12-02T23:58:00.002+08:00

HELLO HELLO!
internet was down for the past few days~
so didnt manage to come online..
and there are SO MANY eventS to update on..
dead!

prom was yesterday..
didnt regret going..
but i REALLY REALLY HATE PAINTING my face):
i think it sucks having to make-up
so nice to be boys right? xD

will be back with the updates soon..
cos im already sleepy after being dragged out of bed by the planes this morning
horrible planes we have in Jurong >.<

tadas all! <3

nose marathon

2008-11-19T20:54:00.002+08:00

heard of nose marathon ?
my nose participated and it's running like no man's business now..
thanks to all the dust behind my books and notes and everything
lousy sensitive nose i have
>.<

met xinEE at stadium in the morning to run
she's pro man..
she ran 6 rounds around the standard track
i gave up after 5 rounds cos of my lousy ankles..
i think every single part of jeslyn is lousy..
agree or agree?
waahaha

brought my little cousins and bro to the library today
their feedback to their mum was that it was the FIRST happy outing with me
cos they will feel VERY pressurized whenever im out with them..
see how bad jeslyn is ?
till the extent that my cousins have phobia of me..
tsk tsk tsk..

anyway, tomorrow's s24 class chalet at aloha loyang
looking forward to this last outing..
it's the first too..
cos i never attended any of the class outings due to SOME reasons..
bad jeslyn i know..
BUT BUT at least im attending one now right ? xD
it's like the last outing cos the guys will be entering NS soon right ?.
so.. ya.. you know what i mean(:

okay.. before i delete all the well wishes away,
i would like to thank the following people again, for the well wishes during As:
Winnie, BoonSiong, Joseph s24, HoYin, MinYen, JiaHao, Jeffrey, XinEE, XinYi, Tommy, WenYao, Joflin, ShinHwee, Marvin, BingXiang, Nicole, KeeSeng, HsinMing, Melvin, Siling, Angeline(primary school friend), John, YuFeng, Suhaimi, Jonathan, WoeiJye, Amanda, KeeHong, FengYi, Mason, Valerie, ZhiHui, MUMMY, Cuthbert, Angela, XingYi, AiTing and Mr Kwok((:

yep yep.. inbox cleared.
i love my mummy! cos she ferry me to school for every paper during As, just like what she did during Os.. teehee. okay. i know im random.. but i dont care.. jeslyn loves to be random!
tralala~

okay. that's all for today..
thank you and have a nice day~
[that's so SC!~ yucks! =P]

A's over!!

2008-11-18T20:38:00.002+08:00

AHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!~~~~~~~~~~~

A level is OVER
yes!
O-V-E-R!!!

can you believe it?
i cant really believe it..
i was kinda lost just now..
cos i dont know how life's gonna be like,
when i no longer have to cramp info for like months..
it's like different from O levels as there's no first 3 months for university!

and and and...
Jeslyn still cant accept the fact that she's 18..
especially after watching "High School Musical 3: Senior Year"
cos just like what is shown, all of us will be going on different ways!
the guys will be serving NS,
the girls will be working or we'll be entering different courses in uni..
sad or sad or sad?
boo..

also, there are also so many things that require me to make decisions!!
bahh~~
jeslyn's gonna learn driving, there'll be chaletS and outingS~
busy busy~

oh well oh well..
let nature take its course..
im tired..
this is a random post
hah!
will be back soon((:

last day of school):

2008-10-17T23:46:00.004+08:00

HELLO all! the moon is blue today.. go check it out..
blue right ? [did you really went to check?]
haha!

okay~ today's the last official day of school..
feel kinda weird and lost..
1.5yrs just zoomed pass without me really knowing what's going on
time wasted or time well spent ?

though i kept saying that i dislike school,
but afterall, those are just jeslyn's rantings..
trying to escape the reality..
tyring to make it seems like her bad results are due to hatred?

whatever it is, JJ really left me with LOADS of memories..
all the laughters and tears..
all the joy and sadness..
every single moments have made my jc life so colourful..
but how colourful it is wasnt portrayed..
sadly, i realized, i usually update only when im down..
so only the sad times are noted..
aww..

took alot of pictures today..
will be sending to xinyi~
she will be the one disseminating or rather circulate the photos..
thanks gal!
cos jeslyn will really take SUPER long time to update photos..
xinyi knows that xD

okay! final 2 weeks to A levels..
hope everything goes well for me..
cos prelim results really sucked BIG TIME...
i got myself a disgusting ranking point of 43
got to work so super hard in order to enter university..
jeslyn toh!! STUDY HARD!!

okay la.. it's late.. time to sleep...
good luck and all the best to everyone too!
study hard..
loves<3

prelims are finally over

2008-09-01T21:11:00.002+08:00

Hey ALL!
it's been LONG since i last updated my blog..
2 more weeks to 2 months already hur..
i made a wise decision to label it as "Dead" then(:

well well..
PRELIMS are FINALLY OVER!!!
3 dreadful weeks are gone..
and a final countdown of 2 months to As..

time flies isnt it ?
i know im always saying that..
but it's an undeniable fact right..
it's now september school vacation..
not really a holiday meant for us to play till we drop dead
but a short period of time to relax alittle before preparing to fight the war

hmm.. many things happened all these weeks..
be it happy or sad ones,
there are just far too much things to be mentioned
and so it's best to leave them unsaid..
no point brooding over the past..
we got to move on..
the future is awaiting..
but this would mean that this period of time will be left out when i look back~
whatever the case, what's gone is gone..

let me be a little random..
jeslyn is really grateful that there are some really nice people
always there for her.. whether it's up or down, these people are always there
to share the joys and tears.. thanks people!(=

money no enough 2 is SUPERB!
i love it so much please..
it's really a nice movie..
jack neo's movies never fail to make me weep..
yes, it's like singaporeans watching their everyday lives..
FULL marks!
worth watching (=

12 lotus is a hokkien musical..
guess you'll only like it if you can understand hokkien well
and also if you like to listen to hokkien songs..
im ok with the movie and like the songs in it..
i even bought the OST before i watch the movie..
but joey was like "jie, i dont understand the movie.. what is it trying to say?" --"
anyway, 疼傻人 by 杨佳莹? is nice! i heart the chorus..
jeslyn is an emo kid (:

okay la.. im tired already..
dont blame me for updating such a short entry..
cos at least i updated okay xD

good night and take care all!
shall update when i feel like it xD

12th July 2008 - a day i will never forget

2008-07-13T21:07:00.004+08:00

first thing first, Happy belated Birthday to Joflin!
friday was her birthday..
hope you enjoyed yourself and like the presents(:

12th July 2008 is a day Jeslyn will never forget..
it's like the worst day to date.
my eyes are comparable with that of goldfish's
not that im an emo kid..
but things are just ...
all so WRONG!
i had to do something..
i had to do something to make changes before it gets worse..

i didnt regret my actions my words..
it was yesterday jeslyn realised how ugly human beings are..
how fake we can be..
how pro a backstabber one is capable of being..

when you grow older, things dont get simpler
but more perplexing instead...
so what's the point of saying "i want to grow up fast" ?

when you get older,
it's when you get into a world you wouldnt want to enter...
a world full of fakes..
a world where you dont know who you can trust
a world where everyone has to put on a mask to camouflage themselves
a world where lies are told to protect oneself..

i dont understand why cant people just be true to others
and mind their own life instead of trying to ruin others'..
i dont get it when life cant be as simple as ABC
when one can actually do something to change the bad..
sigh.

okay enough.
just some usual rantings from me..
dont get too affected and start thinking as much as i do..
it wont do you any good..

take care all..

snowy~ (x

the last day of 2011

a month into 21

counting down to 21st

SPren; KDD attached? ):

im waiting for KDD. things arent the same anymore):

acceptance.

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daddy's block and unit no.

sigh. 初一

what a CNY eve..

last day of 2010

倪倪死了.. neyney's gone..2/12/2010

what's death to you?

quarrel again...

what's with the hatred ?

byebye exams!!

one paper down~

poetic please!!

nice cooling weather~

tired~~

korea out of FIFA~ ):

korea into top 16!!

WHOOOOOO

off to taiwan soon~~

im in school~ BCA DCE Y1 Class 1B

survey - stay real

attending NEW MEDIA COURSE

april's fool day

articles

happy lunar valentine's day!

CNY EVE~`

quote

zhu!

12 years`

stupid gal~~~!!!

good bye my love, starstar...

koko is dead)'x

koko ):

last day...

AVATAR~!! WHAOS!

1 YEAR !!! <3

Tiger Hunting - Tiger Woods wife outrun video game

2012 ? ...

im not an undergraduate!! )x

blogger dumbo

random photos

happy birthday fiona!

凯梅瑞

amanda's last day ):

yet another working sunday =/

im a puppet

<<333 孙自佑

20-09-2009

7th Night of July~`

zzzBANG

it's 16th!! june -.-

fake lin chi ling

japan trip

YUCK!

i cant see the traffic light!~ HAHA

wind!

funny~

cute aunties

fast and furious 4

pleasant weather = better memory!

alert

earth hour ?

poor kid):

SYF 2009

back from japan

jeslyn u suck

tired tired

January is gone~

release of A result~

初三

11th death anniversary..

park yong ha (:

wat a sis

DROVE ALONE~~

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