Saturday, December 04, 2010
after living for exactly 11months more,
my winter white, honey aka neyney,
passed away peacefully on Dec 2, 2010..
joining starstar and koko in the hammies paradise..
i didnt get to say any last words to neyney..
for it was still breathing before i went to bed..
life..
so vulnerable..
so unpredictable..
i didnt want to face the reality..
i thought it was just my eyes playing tricks on me..
i looked away...
but something inside me forced me to look at it again....
neyney was lying motionless in his cage..
yes.. he wasnt breathing..
his stiff limbs and body confirmed his death..
touching his motionless, cold, stiff body was a torture..
it was as if the world collapsed;
as if there were thousands of daggers stabbed into my heart..
i felt so heavy..
tears flowed like river..
no words could describe the pain at that moment..
to many, neyney is just an animal, a pet or worse still, just a rodent
but to me, he is my companion who accompained me through ups and downs for almost 3 years..
he's always by my side every night,
listening to my rantings before i go to bed..
he's more than a pet.. he's better than a boyfriend..
for he brought only joy.. for he was always around, ready to listen....
for a maximum life span of 3 years,
neyney has been benovelent to me..
2years 8months is already a miracle from him to me..
he helped heal my wound, of losing koko and starstar overnight..
he lived 11months more after they passed on..
he accompanied me for near 3 years..
and during his last 2 months or so, he's slowly showing me that he has aged..
giving me time to learn the fact that he has go soon...
now that he's gone,
neyney, thanks for everything that you've given to me..
you'll be in my heart till the day i stop breathing..
如果还有来世， 就别再做仓鼠了..
赶紧投胎去~ 有缘再见..
정말 너무 사랑해..
