Friday, October 01, 2010
HAPPY children's day!
HAPPY ? what an irony.
tomorrow will mark the 14th day since i last talked to my mum.
and the situation turned for the worse instead of improving..
when ? TODAY.
while 90% of the children in the malls, on the street are with their mother/parents,
i was loitering around before i finally look for da jiu mu and my cousins,
to join in their celebration for children's day..
rahh. i dont know what to say.
it's all because of that sidney ng! that dumbass bootlicker.
yes, i dont have the certificates that he has.
and with no one having those certs in the office,
there's nothing i can do to shoo him off..
moreover, as i mentioned earlier,
BOOTLICKERS THRIVE IN ALL TRADES
according to my sis, mum cried today.
out of guilt or what, i dont know.
i didnt want to make her cry.
but she doesnt know how much tears i've shed because of her.
i cant say that i suffered because of her.
cos that'll be unfair to her..
she sent a sms ;
"u dont like me nvm. u take care. i think i should be the one to disappear in order to please everyone"
i replied;
"u r my mum n my only parent. daddy dumped us 3. im alrdy doing whatever i can to please everyone. but my feelings and thoughts are never thought of.. the only way is to isolate myself since i've always been a thorn due to my attitude"
yes. doing whatever i could to please my mum especially.
always brainwashing myself to suit her.
but i admit im a spoilt brat.
she'll give me whatever i want.
so in return(i suppose), i try to accomodate to her.
and that's the choice i made.
who can i blame?
all in all that has happened till this moment,
jeslyn toh, you are fully responsible.
不喜欢我的人多到数不清~ 脾气坏到爆，又不会拍马屁；牙尖嘴利，可说是人见人厌... 但这就是我！再怎么不讨好，只要我没做错、说错，我还是会做我自己~
no matter how sucky a person im, jeslyn toh is always jeslyn toh. leopard never change its spots.
